HOT+CHIO. muahahahah.

2006-12-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

2006-12-14T13:56:00.000+08:00

im back! yay! on 13th actually..yesterday morning. had dinner date with meiz as well. pretty good time together which i guess we both did really enjoy =) after sucha long layoff..hee missed many people pretty much! promised pictures..so here are some.
more to come though.cus they are not uploaded just yet.so be patient!! =) anyway.
dubai was pretty cool. its something different. something that many just hear about but not many people KNOW how it is like exactly. yeah the people there all wear long "dresses" guys are all in white. prob one outta 10 you find on the street is wearing a different colour. the women are all in black! some cover their faces up to their eyes..and there are others who cover EVERYTHING. which is equal to a walking black mass of cloth. yes. no joke.

how do they see...i suppose the area covering their eyes are more perforated..so.. more holes to see haha and they have to lift up their veil to eat small stuff. when it comes to a meal they jus take the whole thing off and show their faces. haha. mum was being mean saying what if an old wrinkly person is under that veil.no one would know and when she does take it off BOOM what a shock man. hee. oh wells. meanie.

and dubai! is a RICH RICH RICH nation. so many new buildings are popping up all over the place and now under construction is 3 palm islands. the most famous being the JUMEIRAH palm islands which is the 8th wonder of the world! cool. and 7star hotels. the place is super dry though *peeling face* and yeah the malls there are freaking big. takes one day to walk like one whole level -_-"". haha. there is this place called the mall of emirates.wha there is a ski slope inside plus a super mini indoor theme park sorta thing. super pro. which adds to the size of it as you can guess. managed to get quite a bit of stuff there with all the sales at some shops and the REAL sale..something like the BIG SINGAPORE SALE is starting like on the 15th of dec. HAHA.brilliant dont you think so. jus missed. and there are new attractions like some global village thing with dubailand under construction and all.

its seriously an up and coming place. very rich. very vast. alot of land. many people. oh most of the people are from India. everyone we ask seems to be from there. the sales people are mostly from the philippines. and EVERYONE thinks that we are from JAPAN! come on...WHY JAPAN!?!? haha. i mean if you say CHINA..i would prob understand ..but japan.haa.ok... really did enjoy myself quite abit! did dune riding..treking (car got stuck in the water) and camel riding..visited villages..watched belly dancing..hand some hanna done on my hand.SHOPPING! haha.yeps. good 6days. great time =)

hope everyone has a great hols!! erzi! do take care at cooookkiiieeeman!! =)

2006-12-06T20:15:00.000+08:00

4 very happy friends that went for a goooood chomp-licious feast!
seeing who has the biggest..MOUTH.mallery leong WINS hands down!
haha.more funnie faces
ooh sumptious good food =)
what kinda expression is this man!!! hahaha.
2 very happie sisters!!!
look at how big the.....sugarcane is!!!ooh.
trying out my nikon camera which works perfectly fine at home but didnt wanna work when we were there.WEIRD. its supposed to capture things super clear even when they are shaking... pictuers...are lYING! haha
yeah...
the night did end of well. had a good time through out the day as well with nice meiz. and of course my good friends at chomps!
wish more people could come with us but i guess time and the WANT was not on your side.
nxt time changi village
and...westlake..
plus...jb seafood.mwahahha.
fats.

2006-12-03T13:52:00.000+08:00

some people realise it late. others dont realise it at all.
when you are busy, you just tend to neglect other things. other people. and anything else around you that does not seem to be on your mind at the moment.
its like that when one studies. you jus focus so much that you neglect the people ard you.
is it?

maybe i would agree with that. but for my own part.
i dont think im ignoring people ard me.
cus.to do that would jus leave me in a dark cold cave. alone.
and that is just crap.

there's always a reason for things to happen.
always a reason for not being there.
always a reason for not doing something.
but.
can reasons always get you outta the situation.
can it always be your saving grace.
or
its up to the person
to just understand.
and accept.

on a nicer note.
greenboy came over yesterday for a while
he did nothing but play stuff on my comp.
but.
the presence and love was felt through out the day.
it really did make me smile. knowing that he was around.
and.
surprise surprise.
i found a card in my mailbox today with no stamp.haha.
and yeps.i thank u so much.

-sweet-
guess you are one of the only ones that wouldn leave me in the dark.

2006-11-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

just for some amusement. have you ever seen an OLD OLD alien? there it is. HAHA.

2006-11-28T00:03:00.000+08:00

i chose the path with the light
i chose this path cus i felt something was still there for me to hold on to
it didnt seem as bleak as it seemed to be
i chose this path
and
i chose it
with you in mind
with our future in mind.

note: most impt.
i have to thank you.
for giving me this LIGHT..at the end of the tunnel.
you.are so impt =)
thx super much.
[paw] says nothing yet says it all.

2006-11-27T02:14:00.000+08:00

i just need an outlet. this shall be the perfect place.
ive nt been so $*%$)(* in my entire life.
all thanks to you.

talking things out always seemed the way to go
after that just keep it away and forget about it
i told you before it seemed that you expected me to be fine and alright
you said no
but IT SEEMED that way.

i asked you to explain things to me
you said it was too complicated
i had to go thru it with you a step at a time
you ASSUMED that i knew what was going on
so you explained from there.
it SEEMED as if i had known all along that this was the procedure for stamping.
but i didnt
cus you didnt tell me.

you had known bout me being unhappy
you tried to do things to cheer me up
you missed the most important first step
resulting in my response toward you.
it SEEMED as if you didnt care.
but you did.

you said you were ok with this decision made
but your tone and response was bigger then imagined
there after you gave me an example..which wasnt the same situation
and you gave me YOUR OWN example..which just pissed me off.
it SEEMED as if i should have known why you were feeling disappointed.
but i didnt.
cus you didnt tell me.
cus you were scared

it SEEMED that there were many things that you didnt know.
had to find out
took initiative at times..didnt at others.
tried hard all the time
hitting the mark at times and didnt at others.

it SEEMS the easiest way out of this is just to forget.
accept.
understand.
or should it be
let go.
and move on.
what should it be.
maybe you can tell me.

2006-11-26T17:20:00.000+08:00

this shall be a very random post. about things and more things.
my dearest "dog" - ha pi.
my first needlework.. for someone super special =) *paw*
my group of very interesting and nice friends in nus south east asia module at our very last "lunch" together.me.valerie.pris.charmaine.kaiwei.
the amount of money i spent driving due to me failing once..due to a stpd error. which im proud to say i have overcome and can drive more confidently now.

a very nice triangle plate on my car which makes me very happie looking at it. haha. oh and i have to say that my instructor is super super good. very patient. very good. so if anyone wants him do ask me =) i have to help him get CLIENTS!haha.
this is greenboy doing a puzzle for me.
me feeling very dead.haha.
and the almost finished but unfinished product.haha act its up and framed already. jus that these photos are just late.

when the good times are here...they really put a smile on your face.
but when the bad times hit.
they hit you with such force and vigour that it seems hard to stand up again.
yet at such times there are people there to hold u as you fall.
and at other times. they just seem to disappear into their own lives.

2006-11-24T19:11:00.000+08:00

maybe you are right.
maybe thats whats bothering me
but is it too much for me to think that way

thx to greenboy for giving me the nice bookmark and nice little wallet card haha.
the dogs are cute though the wallet one does look super fierce and lau ah pei-ish.
haha but yeps i would continue striving on.

oh and meiz.haha thanks man for today =) and im sure i can kao on you in future too right!? hee *pawpaw*

econs tmr.may the Lord be with all the people taking the exam
good luck one and all.

2006-11-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

[chorus]

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

[chorus]

I'm everything I am Because you loved me

-clay aiken-

im just suddenly hooked onto his version of the song. not very much deviation but it just makes you feel so good and warm inside. brilliant song. brilliant.

is having a good time together or being happy together all it takes to keep something together? or is it something else. when would you know when to let go. when would u know when its enough. when would you know.

pray. pray. pray.

2006-11-21T18:02:00.000+08:00

Mmm...The world seems so cold
When I face so much all alone
A little scared to move on
And knowing how fast I have grown
And I wonder just where I fit in
Oh the vision of life in my head
Oh yesI will be
Strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on
Traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I'm living, and I'm breathing
My destiny, yeah yeah
I can't let go now
Even when darkness surrounds
But if I hold on, yeah
I will show the world
All the things that you never expected to see
From little old me, this pittsburgh girl
And I wonder just where my place is
Close my eyes and I remind myself this
Oh yeah yeah
I will beStrong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep onTraveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I'm living, and I'm breathing
My destiny, ohh
It comforts me
Ooh it keeps me
Alive each day of my life
Always guiding me
Providing me
With the hope I desperately need
Well I gotta believe
There's something out there meant for me
Oh I get on my knees
Praying I will receive
The courage to grow and the faith to know
That I will be
Strong on my own
I will see through the rain
I will find my way
I will keep on
Traveling this road
Till I finally reach my dream
Till I'm living, and I'm breathing
My destiny

2006-11-20T20:38:00.000+08:00

they say you are the loneliest during times of need. times of want. times of sadness.

why?

simple.

cus in such times. whatever people do (if they do anything) does not seem enough.
whatever people do seems to not hit the correct spot
whatever people do seems to be repititive.

then again.what do you expect people to do. cus maybe, you are just doing the exact same thing back to others. being repititive. being quiet. or just not doing anything at all.

is this happening to you now? maybe, people are too busy (as they always say) to do anything. provide that extra something. probably they are too caught up with their own business to show very much care on your part.

or maybe. they just dont know that you are feeling as such.

interesting how some peoples minds might think isnt it. haha. my theory for people being lonely during such times. right? wrong?

2006-11-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

this post might be too slow. but never too late.
guess this would mean so much more to someone who has worn that blue uniform (with no blouse ><) for 10 years as compared to someone who has been there for a short span of 4 years. nevertheless, it has been a truly memorable experience with a strong sense of attachment and belonging, which can only happen in a school like scgs.

kaiwei received a sms that day saying that the meepok man has passed away last night due to a sudden heart attack. the 4 of us who sat in a row during lecture all just kept quiet for a while. the look on our faces and the feeling we had in our hearts were one and the same. everytime you talk to a sc gal she would never forget to mention the famous meepok man. he is and will forever be an icon of scgs. i always rem having to run from my class which was further away from the canteen to the meepok man stall. just to see a whole long line in front of me. it was the only stall which commanded such respect and such queues. i always wondered how people could just eat meepok every single day. performing the same routine everyday.
keeping books way in advance.
pushing chairs back.
once the teacher lets u off
zoooom
you can REALLY SEE PEOPLE RUNNING.
no joke about it.

i alw wondered how in the world this stall could be THAT GOOD. i tried it. n understood. others who try it might think its just nothing and comparable to those sold in hawker centres or even those with the yummy king zao pai on it. this is different. it has spirit. it has love. it has history. it has sc.

we were pretty saddened by this lost. jus thought of going back to eat it that day when ms heng had her farewell.
now that you think about it. ms heng is gone. mrs phuas gone. so many teachers are gone. ms chiam ms ma to name a few. i foresee more people going in the near future. and now this icon meepok man. is gone.
what has become of the scgs that i once thought i knew so well. everything changes and times move on. i will forever love this school. its people and its food.
this.
is dedicated to all sc gals out there.
mouring for the lost of this brilliant man.
and for the future generations
who would never get to experience and feel what scgs is truly about.

2006-11-08T00:57:00.000+08:00

doesnt it happen often enough. you say something meaning A but the person listening listens and thinks of meaning B. after awhile you get pretty irritated at each other because you are talking bout different things A and B and you cant seem to get to a nice conclusion for both parties. well this could have been avoided if you just explicitly said what you were thinking and made everything look straight-forward and easy to understand. dont hide behind words, dont hide behind facades. if you want to say A just say it.short and simple.

alot of misunderstandings occur due to such mistakes. not only in ESSAYS but in SPEECH.

have you ever come across essays that were written as if the person was speaking as he or she wrote it out. its crap. my lecturer wants to faint at the sight of our essays since he cant take bad english anymore. and how do I blame him. browsing through the forum of my school subjects all i see are grammer problems and sentence structuring problems. haha typos arent counted unless pretty obvious since some people might type pretty fast and miss out some letters in the process. but how is it possible to type AS IF you are speaking?
there is definitely a certain change in tone and style
there is definitely a change in choice of words used

you dont know cus u are not editing your own essay. spare a thought for the people doing it for you.they can just cry and throw up. cough their lungs out and laugh till the cows come home. come on. wake up.

side note: relax breathe. i know you have been uber busy. super stressed. MEDITATE. jus handle your situations slowly okie. rem this: unshakable faith! nv doubted trust. love ya *paw*

2006-11-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

I didn't mean to let you down
You have to believe me
I don't know what went through my mind
But now I can see
That I waited too long
To tell you how much it matters
(Just to be right here with you)
But I couldn't think of anything better
I should've told you so

Chorus

Baby open your heart
Won't you give me a second chance
And I'll be here forever
Open your heart
Let me show you how much I care
And I will make you understand
If you open your heart
To love me once again

2006-11-01T13:37:00.000+08:00

its been awhile since my last blogging session. just didnt have the time or the want actually to put anything up here. everything has been pretty smooth thus far just that the deadlines are coming in bout 2 weeks and ive not exactly started on my project. thankfully the assignment due on friday is done but the one on monday..aka philosophy paper from hell is not the least touched. ive not watched my 2 webcast for the lectures i missed last friday due to a very very important cause *winks* but yeps..other than that...its been an ok week.

managed to meet meiz finally haha after some time and had a short lunch outing b4 she went of for her tuition. met greenboy..did work at nat lib while he tried to help me find my sources.haha.good try man. didn find much on that philippines topic but i managed to get quite a lot for my japanese topic..which i FINALLY got my butt down to consulting my tutor about it. yes its been approved!!yay!proper WHY question left to tackle b4 i can go into full swing. may time be on my side. =/

passed driving.omgomgomg.finally.haha after the first try got pretty disheartened but more prac after that led me to getting crappy demerit points..like 10 for stopping on the pedestrain crossing.so super right. think test just sorta drain you and make you do things that you would never have done like striking the kerb while parking @#*@()#*)(@ nv done that before lar!! haha. now i have problems parking this ultra big car of mine and getting into my house drive way cus its really big...i really cant see. need to judge alot which of course i am still a big noob at doing..so...yeah.hopefully i would manage to handle this car quickly enough, get parents to give me the OK sign and yes! i promised you a ride right..you would definitely get it okie. paw. but from what i see..prob after exams huh! busy one.

sometimes you think you do understand and know someone but in the end the person does things that absolutely amaze you.

me: tired already
you: what happened to your leg today
me: explains abit
you: -new topic-
me: can you hear im tired from my voice
you: yes
me: so!??!?!?!?!
you: wanna keep you here 1 or 2 mins more mah
me: -_-""""

2006-10-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

first touch jerseys!haha. black nicer though.ntu >< *sadly*
maybe we would get nice jerseys in the future?? haha. fat butt me =(

ah....now i know why...88 bucks!!vermonster!!! =)

2006-10-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

"without your support it would have been different"

i agree.

"i foresee you having a great future up ahead in this course"

it happened

"would keep praying for ya!"

it would always be and forever more.

"pawpaw"

the signature sign off.

"may our love and support grow stronger with time"

am i entitled to say that it would happen for sure?

time spent. laughter shared.
joy felt. love spread.
tears wept, hugs spared.

can i say that this would last forever. i hope so. maybe forever is too strong a word, but for a long time to come? i pray so. i know so. i believe so.
glad that you have come thus far. glad that you have a great goal in mind. most imptly, glad that we have made it this far together. supporting. guiding. understanding. caring. having a faith which is pretty much unshakable.

[this post is written from ME to YOU]
[pawpower]

2006-10-16T19:36:00.000+08:00

had a good talk with erzi that day. we managed to conclude some doubts but left others hanging. you would expect something out of a friend cus you care very much about that friend. if you didnt care, it would not matter what the friend did or didnt do which would techically mean that that friend is not as close or as important. so from this explanation we would see that expectations is a measure of how much you love someone. granted?

however, what if we look at it from another perspective. take for example you and your friend. you hardly talk very much. you dun tell each other how your day went. you dun bother to even ask actually. he or she may not be the first person to go to when a problem hits you. BUT when you do talk, this person just holds that special bond with you. this person is jus able to make you want to tell him or her everything and anything. after the talk you walk away feeling so good and happie, something that the everyday friend might not be able to make you feel. this would show that you dun exactly expect very much from each other, but u still love him or her deeply enough. so expectations cant exactly be used to measure love can it?

someone once told me that i should learn to love without expectations. i accepted her arguement about it but i never totally agreed with what she said. cus to me i felt that i could not love someone without expectations. expectations here is not in the form of asking for things back in terms of material wants or needs. it just means giving as much as you would like the other person to give back to you. treating the other person with care and concern just like how u would like him or her to treat you back. is this asking for too much in a friendship? of course understanding is necessary. at times that friend might ignore you, or neglect you should i say. cus he or she has their own lives to lead, their own things to do. some ppl are SUPER BUSY! yet, thru this time should u demand their attention? by not gaining their attention does it mean that you have been cast aside away from notice? that i beg to differ.

i guess expectations is something that we would all have to live with. i admire those people who can just watch their loved one walk right away from them into someone else's arms and say that he or she is happie if the other is happie. haha. so weida. i really do wonder if people can actually bring themselves to do something of such greatness. or is it just idealistic in all.

sometimes. you do things that you dun want to. yet you cant control it.

watched scoop!pretty good show. and meiz! our sushi meal..and someother meal..and some other outing..and some other one day..and some other..ubin ride..some other chompchomp...some other blading outing.shall all come true..some day.SOME DAY!haha. jiAYozA.

greenboy!!you.mighty interesting fellow. hope trainings aint too boring for you. knowing you..confirm not tough right. soccer pro. tt pro. everything also pro. how cld i FORGET..everything also GOOD RIGHT.haha as you always say =) this time no bi ci right.=( hee.anyway hang on for the rest of the week. nice puzzle awaits yeah! *hugs*

2006-10-09T16:10:00.000+08:00

maf was quite a blast. thought that the catch up session with my classmates was awesome. thankfully i managed to convince my dearest mia pal of mine..haubi zhou to finally show her very pretty face!! after all this DONKEY YEARS of hiding in her small cell in some far away jungle..she has finally come back into the living world and appeared in front of us all! kudos!! haha but yeah it was super seeing her again..not seen her for some time le and haubi if you do get to read this pls dun punch or kill me lols im still waiting for our ONE FINE SKIRT OUTING DAY!! *which has to come true* yea??

caught up with dear councillors as well! they are really a pretty fun bunch of people esp those that i finally met up with. was busy re-enacting scenes where couples let go of hands when they see their friends. talked to someone in school that day and she said that she always does that with her boyfriend. its sorta mutual in a way and they would not get pissed or anything. in fact i must say that they are pretty shy! it was quite an interesting view point cus i know of many people that would find it weird if the bf or the gf would just let go of the other parties hands upon seeing his or her friends. isnt a sign of hiding something? or is it just a normal thing that many people do and shouldnt be thought about too much? i guess..most of the times people let go cus they are super paiseh..but i suppose there really is nothing to hide. come on! show the world that this guy or this gal is MINE!! haha. ok.that was mad.

managed to finish up my psychology mid term paper finally. thought thru it alot alot. but really unsure if things would work out eventually.do hope so! now on to econs test..which i have not mugged for and more projects on the way. going to watch some horror show for sea lecture. sounds super interesting =) have to watch some japanese show as well i think its called akira? yeah for japanese studies. and mighty alot of other things but yeps. i guess uni life isnt that great u know...who said it was easier then A lvls! there is jus alot alot of other things to do which isnt as dry as jc or sec school.unless of course your passion is just doing bio and staring at genes and numerous dna. *winks* freak.

a side note: am super glad for you meiz!!! haha you are seriously starting off on a super note lar.hugs! take care and do keep it up! nothing is impossible! yay!

played touch that day..in super hazy conditions.was quite sickening playing in that condition lar but managed to get third place.arts always wins! this year..abit dao mei lar but nvm nvm. managed to play with the snrs in the end and boy did that really teach me things. jus playing with them for that short moment or so and i realised how much you needed to think on your feet and decide what you wanna do and how you wanna go about doing it. i always thought that basketball was super fast paced and needed me to do the same thing but this drives me in a different way all together. touch. a very interesting and mind boggling game but definitely something worth learning and playing properly. would try to improve much by sunday! hopefully i can play abit better =)

its hard sometimes.when you put in so much effort into doing something. saying something. putting across something. and things dont go your way. its harder when you care so much about something and still things would just seem to go the right way and end up u-turning all the way backward. when is it ok to stop trying. what keeps you going. its a truly amazing world.

2006-10-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

had an extremely good day on friday and on saturday. friday i finally met up with my long awaited bballers. excellent bunch of people. yingzi.yinyin.claire.elissa.wenai.yingzhi. (seniors) and of course my dearest erzi.nuer.and the rest of the junior people. missed the past 2 years of pvp one due to council..another due to being sick / haubi birthday as well. this gathering, was a small substitute of what i had missed out on earlier. the whole feeling of being there..pigging out from 5plus all the way till daylight was gone, mixing with people whom you have not met up with in a long time and talking to seniors and juniors alike with no age restriction is not something that can happen anywhere.anytime. this is unique to scgs. unique to bball. unique to

me. i was blessed to have been given the chance to enter this school..this team...and to meet this bunch of wonderful people. i thank you all. esp joy and zeying..for organising this whole thing and opening up your house. thanks so much for giving me this chance...to truly relive.. what i call the sc bball spirit. p.s the cake was excellent man. seriously. and with that happie birthday song erzi..i think we can go join jue due superstar eh! *winks*

saturday!!bright early morning..scooted with regina over to miah house and managed to meet up with the rest there as well. his room was seriously in a MESS! and thankfully we bought his presents from ikea..so we fixed things up for him and voila!after a cool hour plus..everything was nice neat..and super. his walls had AMAZING paintings from my dearest meiz and his table was finally seen! clutter all kept nicely with the portable organisers and stuff we got. brilliant. the things someone can do for his or her loved one is jus beyond your imagination. either that its just cus i am not that artistically inclined.haha meiz..dun so selfish!hee =) sushi making was super fun as well.haha would put up the pictures when i get them!

overall a brilliant day.went out with greenboy aft that. wanted to watch some movie but all the timings kinda sucked as i had chloe's party on after that. went to cine lvl9! wanted to rent some dvd there...took some thai horror story which caused us both to almost fall asleep..so aft a short while we changed to casanova.ha super show!!very funnie!and quite a storyline as well! it was damn enjoyable and with him by my side..things were just perfect =)

anw..MEEP!her party was SUPER SUPER FAR.changi.like wth)(#*)(#$*)(#*$)(#CHANGI!!!it was a cold dreary dark night...with hardly any civilisation as fel and i got off this bus. and walked along the way to this esso station only to find out that condo was behind us..we walked all the way back only to find out that..there was no FREAKIN OPENING! so we walked the length of 2 condos..one esso station..turned into this lane and walked past ONE MORE CONDO b4 reaching the darn place. thats not all! the changi place is jus TOOO big..with TOO Much space..so the driveway was NV ENDING.and the place..has NO RECEPTION.haha amazing right.but the ben and jerry icecream and good food made up for our fat burning experience. =) =) its called the vermonster?? bermonster?? i dunno but its a damn big tub..with toppings of all sorts!yum! meiz would have loved it.haha fel and i did SUPER MUCH!

yes.that jus topped off the brilliant day. but yes it was a well spent day.took away my tiredness.took away the pain. took away the boredom on the train. took away the loneliness.
a shoulder was provided
a presence was felt.
a love was presented.

a side note: meiz. we explained to meep.DUN WORRY *angelic smile* and yes. im glad you feel super good and things are going WELL for you. no more sianess.the week ahead is totally draining i know. here's an early motivation force. hang on tight. love ya! =)

2006-09-27T10:40:00.000+08:00

its important how someone views you and how you view the other person
its important that you look impressive
AND
you sound impressive
its important how you think as it would affect how others think and perceive you
its important how you do and carry out task cus people watch and form judgments
WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT
its important to say the right things..even if its the smallest of things
as that beats saying nothing at all.
its important to know who are the people surrounding and supporting you
cus you never know when they wouldnt be there and when its too late.
its important to give great FIRST impressions
as within that mere 3 seconds setting eyes upon you..it could make or break you.

impressions.presentations.

super important now..since..we are all giving presentations..projects...meeting new people each and everyday. even meeting your own friends. are you close enough for formatlities to be forgotten?

keep in mind. always.

a side note..does one person learn from another person..or do you work together to understand each other better. i choose to DISLIKE the word lEARN. are we teachers?

2006-09-26T15:15:00.000+08:00

before i get back to my psycho readings..and go abit mad in the process.shall come blog abit here. its been quite a happening 2 days for me! managed to have the privilege to experience the singapore idol experience at the one and only indoor stadium!!goodness.the atmosphere was just high to the maximum.everyone was screaming using the clappers and just jumping up and down non stop. the fans screamed their lungs out when the idols came out to perform and tanya chua was excellent. first time hearing rahima rahim (the legend) and she was just astounding.so powerful!!! what a brilliant song to sing as well.it really got all the people up on their feet and i wonder if people outside the stadium could hear us *thinks* haha. beautiful. how in the world can you say that the idol fever is just dying out..no way.definitely not the people who were present on both days!! think my ears kinda gave way when electrico sang..haha it was BOOMING loud lar.deaf already. must shout my name *very near me* then i can hear you haha. but yes.good show.good company.good time. =)

anyway..on a slightly more solemn note...week ahead is quite packed up not cus of alot of projects but cus of outings.haha.oops.and yes readings.mugging.test.and what not.academic papers that are just coming right round the corner.hope i can do well this time round.am pretty scared you can say cus i dun wanna start off on a bad note. jc wasnt great when it came to acad results so i suppose i dun wanna repeat of the past. hope things look brighter.and meiz!glad you are doing well and settling in too! KeepMoving! *jus kp walking..jus kp walking*

it takes 2 hands to clap
it takes one to give and the other to receive
it takes one to joke and the other to laugh
it takes one to cry and the other to cry along
it takes two for a relationship to work out.
it takes two.

it takes one to know when the other person is sad..
and takes the same one to make the person happie again.
it takes one to ensure that impressions are kept good and not destroyed
in front of the other one.
it takes two to come together to figure things out
it takes two to come together to get things done.
it takes two to come together to iron out all differences.

when do you know..its time.when.

2006-09-20T15:37:00.000+08:00

how can i not start off this picture post with a super super nice funnie photo of us!! =)enjoy.
a cool paul twohill shot. come on!!

3 lovely ladies from outerspace have just arrived in singapore! at munchie monkeys!haha these shots were taken in nus..as i promised...i put up the rest of the nicer ones..there are more to come though!

haha brilliant smirk meiz...miah looking most normal of all with lak looking..down....to......the ground..
oh think this photo would rank number one in the worlds SCARIEST HOME SHOT in the world =/ eeps...ah isnt this ghostly....ooooh. THE LIGHT...it just has to be ENLIGHTENMENT!!! haha had to position our faces in such a way cus only then could our faces be seen on the mac comp.
a brilliant picture of 2 very happening gals who would nv give this friendship up for anything in the world =) what are you thinking off?? *wonders*
nice surprise bouquet of flowers. mum had to top up somemore though *winks*outing with greenboy.haha.there were other pictures.funnie.ugly.hilarious on the whole but here are the better few out of the lot.just sat there and took picture after picture. greenboy! must take NICE pictures nxt time ok. haha. ask meiz.maybe she can be your image consultant in the future =) but overall. still funnie. maybe you have to practice looking dao.seriously cannot make it man you!

please dun feed the cats. muahahha. *meow* most natural shot..smile like that always =D

2006-09-17T22:46:00.000+08:00

this is what happens when you leave any sort of FOOD DRINK and anything edible to both humans and ANIMALS (esp STPD ONES that crawl around your house the whole time) on the table. nice pot of tea...turns..bad.

anyway.. if you cant see what is that.it is actually a nice pot of tea (can actually proclaim that its the best in singapore! maybe msia!) haha but there is this stpd little animal inside it who could not resist temptation and greed and decided to make a nice home out of this new watery state. yes. a freaking LIZARD. like wth. to show you another one. this one looks more like a crocodile.

which yes caused my mum to scream like nobody's business and of course spoil her nice hardwork cus the one and only tea critic (me) couldn taste it at all!!!haha.but it was pretty hilarious seeing a lizard in the tea. haiz. now we have to cover up every single cup of drink that we leave on the dining table. hungry animals in here. like some animal welfare centre.

celebrated laks bdae at munchie monkeys!haha a nice little place at nus at yih yups. it was cool fel lak miah meiz and I..damn alot of fun! though fel had to leave halfway we couldn help but take numerous photos courtesy of course of our dear meiz MAC comp..which is freaking cool by the way but TOTALLY UNCOMPATIBLE with simple things like msn live. *okie dun whack me* and they say that mac is the only thing that people would use after touching it once. haha been having mixed comments from mac uses but for now the stand is mac is the proest coolest thing that was ever invented and it DESIRES to be selfish and highclass so they only do "inbreeding " which would be something like working within themselves. which is totally unfriendly behaviour.but oh wells. its a class of its own. apple.

look at that!stylo...haha what a smirk.

haha i wish i could upload more photos but something seems to be cranky and not working well. oh wells.nxt time then!

2006-09-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

its quite sad cased eh.that my dear 04s70 class blog is just dead.for a few months already.haha.and im just too damn lazy to go post anything there either since i dont think anyone would bother reading it or even realising it existence.oh wells.so much for a cool class blog haha.seen other classes ones and theirs just seem to be kept alive so well!nvm.to each his own.

watched westlife that day!oh they were just excellent.like seriously. dun tell me it primary school music or just oldies.no way. the belted out stuff like swear it again and new songs from their lastest album.they did covers of dun cha! *changed gf to bf* and they danced..very well save for mark though who was just a blob of fat there and could hardly move as well as the other 3. ONE more thing, i didnt realise that they were that tall. when the walked onto the stage i was like 0.o...so TALL! haha.but yes it was a night of blaring music and totally excellent vocals from shane.love them very much! just kinda rekindled my want to hear all their old songs. one night in singapore and im so glad that i didnt miss it!

its a very very nice weather out there now. very coool wind with sun shining but not piercing your skin. walked to pandan valley to pass meiz smth just now and we walked a short dist back. that moment was really great! loved the weather and of course the company. it might have just been a very short 15 mins or so.but yeah..its such small moments that you would tend to remember for a long time to come.

finally cleared off my old lappy and now my new fujitsu baobei is here to stay!hopefully it doesnt give me any problems and that i can faster get used to typing on this comp. haha and hopefully NOT STRESS weelai and kaiwei out anymore.lols.the essence and key to typing faster..very easy just GO ONLINE MORE. =D haa dun take that as a time waster..take it more as a typing practice.

school has beeen prettty bearable up till now. all the deadlines are rushing to me already. japanese project outline.psycho paper due sooon. mid term exams for econs psych and philo.sea pop quiz and field trip stuff. tutorial question preparations for the class amongst many others. trainings. time for own outings or just some personal time to myself. my cupboard is still in dire need of clearing and my table is just very messed up much to my discontentment.argh.and not to mention..and like 3 chapters behind in my psych reading wif each chapter 100000pages long with a HELL ALOT OF INFORMATION.sian. who said uni life was easier lar.crap man.try it yourself.

anyway.greenboy!do get well soon please.and its been really hard work at the volkswagen open huh.do take the day to rest okie today is the last day already!jiayou! and to you meiz..hugs ya tight. this simple action. hopefully to get rid of any stress.bother and pain.
service providers to each other yeah.haha m1 power!

bad day

2006-09-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

just when is this thing going to end. first it was my nice baobei computer giving me problems of all sorts. now i think its the old comp that is getting jealous and has decided to want some attention from me. seriously. such things somehow have this life of their own. erps. and then after there is all the damn readings to do. SO MUCH!!! the word many cant even be used here.uncountable. boohoo.

on a lighter note i managed to get jay's cd! yes courtesy of dear greenboy. thanks a bunch man. its not too bad at all. think i must keep listening to get used to it. but then again how bad can jay and all these people get right. people like taozhe and jay and jjlin.haha.too good to be true. not to forget wang lee hom. haha. taented individuals in their own ways making a hell lot of good music. =D

shall go get my fujitsu checked out tmr. find out what exactly is wrong with it. hopefully nth too major then i would have to transfer all the stuff on this comp over to there. quite alot of work to do since i do have alot of precious stuff inside this computer of mine. shall have to scoot back and bury my head into the readings i have to do for lects and tuts coming up. japanese on tuesday and i dun even know what i have to prepare for it 8am somemore!!! *argh* 3hr break after that though.wonder what i would do..have a good mind to jus go home. heng there is retardee and kaiwai to pei me thru that tut.

have u ever wondered how is it that 2 people can come to know each other so well. be it guy or gal...its not easy to find someone whom you can truly say UNDERSTANDS you. this word has been overused by many people all the time. when something bad happens, i understand how you feel. do you really?or are you just saying that to comfort me. its a very powerful word i must say which means alot when its said in the right context, by the right people. just because you are close friends does it mean that you would definitely understand the other party well? just because you spend alot of time together does it mean you know all his/her likes dislikes and taste or preference? how is it possible that someone you once seemed to understand just suddenly disappears and drifts further away from you. how is it possible that someone whom u were very close to just decides to stop being friends with you and doesnt even want to acknowledge the fact that you miss him/ her so much.

have you ever gone through the pain of missing someone more then the person misses you. its painful.it hurts to the core.
yet people put other people thru such misery without batting an eyelid.
busy?
no.
reasons?
should they be a reason as to why you jus drift?
answer:
there is a reason only because u allow it. the only reason is that you dun treasure the other party enough. you dun think that its necessary to talk to that person very much everyday or show (emphasis on this word) concern when duly needed. you choose to think that the person KNOWS already or you just dun care. which of the answers is it?

just talked to my erzi that day and we both managed to bring each other thru some rough patches and hard times. its amazing to know that without talking very much at all we still come back to each other when a major problem crops up. how we nv lose that faith in each other ever and how it just seems very perfect b/w us.no quarrels.no misunderstandings.no problems. no cold wars. i thank you here dear erzi for that wonderful post when i left sc..and the wonderful post that you just put up that night.have faith ok!

to you meiz.nt sure how often you come here anymore but take care of yourself.hang in there.and yeps.we will survive thru this times alrights =) effort time. im sure things would go very well =D *cheers to our pawship* haha.

2006-09-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

had lunch with meiz and miah today.great time definitely at my precious deck in nus.haha.the one stop place for pretty good food as compared to the whole of nus =D wanted to watch miah play his soccer game but kinda came too late and cus they lost anw so we didnt manage to watch him but nvm. the lunch was good b4 they scooted off for their deep sleep experiment. went off to meet greenboy! yups.

it was a hell of a time today greenboy.haha.had alot alot of fun seriously. thanks for everything =D
managed to talk quite abit today as well jus sitting down at ben n jerry's eating a nice mix of icecream and jus slacking. i love their chairs lar.so cute and the whole setting!met lenise friend who is working there as a bnj icecream person!haha.scoopy! i like their shirts =) wanted to get a a bag for greenboy as well but we couldn find nice ones. oh wells.surprise me then!

sucks man.when you think that the nice new comp sitting in front of you is just going to work so well and suddenly it jus decides that it wants to slow down and be some pokkai. dunno why its taking so damn long to load up.when its loaded everything works perfectly fine.its jus the time to start up and the problem jus occured yesterday when i brought the comp home! it was perfectly fine in school lar! erps. hopefully this thing works out well =(

oh yes congrats on ur 3-1 win.one set at least! you deserve a big hug =)

2006-08-28T18:30:00.000+08:00

there was something that i wanted to blog about but i kinda forgot.hmm. nvm shall tell you guys some stpd thing i saw that day on mtv. MOST OURAGEOUS BABY NAMES :

1) Tu Morrow. *like wth* can u imagine? jus take a look at this conversation:

man: Hi little one, could u tell me your name?
kid: yes i will, Tu Morrow
man: erm..why cant you tell me your name today?
kid: yes i will tell you, Tu Morrow.

after some persistant asking from the man..the kid cries.

dun the parents ever think?

2) PIRATE *HAHAHAHA* gosh.you would have just given your child the license to ROB.
3) rebel *no joke* take this :

adult: OH MY rebel!! you jus broke the rules!
kid: and my name is supposed to mean?......
adult: ...

4) rouge, rocket. *haha rebels brothers* could u take care of my kids for me rebel rouge and rocket... how fast do you think the nanny would put down the phone?

5)apple. this one aint too bad cus..i guess we are used to apple hong..FISh leong..RAIN..and whatever.smoke how bout haze.

6)brooklyn.romeo. haha the people were saying what a good name romeo...he would just follow shakespears story and kill himself when his first gf refuses to marry him.

7) true summer. whoa.fake summer.false winter and bluff spring????!?!?!? how close are u to nature??

8) kyd. can u imagine being 50 years old and people still calling you HEY KYD.come here KYD. -_-"

okie.jus some that i can remember.there were more but i think Tu Morrow jus scores top marks with all the names i have ever heard so far. the show was damn funnie lar. what kinda names are all this. what happend to the famous SARAH or SAMANTHA or MARY or PETER or JOHN. hahaha. goodness. all the stars jus wanna be famous and give their kids super outrageous names. attention seeking people in all aspects of the word.

2006-08-27T17:03:00.000+08:00

happie me finally managed to get dear greenboy to change his AHPEH slippers into nicer ones. totally younger nicer looking ones. yes! perfect present. now on to shoes..which are jus about to break *makes me wanna take a scissors to cut a hole in them* everytime i see them and a BAG which nicely broke when he carried it down the bus. why is is that guys wait until things CANNOT be used anymore before actually doing something bout it. or is it just YOU! tsk.

anyway. went to watch the guys play their soccer competition with meiz yesterday. was not too bad though quite hot! hee hengs meiz brought her cap which i nicely kopped since she didnt want it, to tie my hair up yups. and so..i didn get burnt!muahaha. hope ur face is better! though they lost to a dubious penalty i must say it was really nice watching all of them play cus we came to realise that we have not watched them all play together before except when they were the pink cows which was rubbish. so watching them...i mus say the ball just totally flows with jem and miah is an excellent centre. not to mention the rio of the team woon.haha.brilliant players. the passion for the sport shows when they play.

its interesting when you can be so dependent and attached to a person but yet you cant see him or her everyday and jus be together all the time.at least i cannot. its so stifiling.so tiring.no freedom whatsoever. you would tend to look out for ur respective partners in the lecture hall in the event that you dun sit together. when that happens and you see ur partner talking very animatedly to another friend ESP of the opposite sex you would feel a sense of jealousy? pain? curiousity as to what ur partner is talking or sharing about although you know nothing is going on. when school is out u would tend to wait for each other to go home together..or smth along these lines. have lunch together and what not. what happened to the word friends? no need for them u might think since you already have ur partner and thats enough. social circle = zero. extreme? no..it has happened b4 my very eyes before. anything goes when one is in love.

which is why i held firm to my stand that you cannot ever be in the same school as your other half. its jus no way to me. then some people couldn agree. but i think if they do face that situation now they would understand. its not possible unless you are both very trusting and independent people. more often then not..ppl arent. but having said that. there are only 3 universities in singapore..oh with the recent addtion of sim making it 4. do ur perm and combi. not many choices right haha...

a side note. i love the mac. though my dear little fujitsu seems to have to be PERSONALLY FLOWN IN FROM SOME OTHER COUNTRY since i can fine no other reason as to why its taking so damn long to come. the mac.is a brilliant comp.and the camera.is very very fun to play with!haha.lucky meiz.

jasin! you you you sports buddie. miss seeing you man!

2006-08-25T00:43:00.000+08:00

had touch training today!damn happie.haha.glad that meiz intro-ed the sport to me in hc.lols thankful that i got the chance to play abit and learn stuff from her as well so that i dont feel so noob playing in nus.though the seniors are really fast and good thats my aim. i suddenly have this great aim and dream to be able to play for nus. yeps. i miss the competitive spirit of all the games that i have ever played. miss the feeling of training till u wanted to die when the comps came our way. missed the chance to have teammates that share the same passion and drive for the sport the way you do. miss all these feelings. miss playing sports and exercising as a whole. took the chance to take this sport up and i wont put it down so easily. this time i shall aim to play for nus. i dun care if im noob now. will def try to catch up and make it up as much as i can =D

received a msg from dear erzi today : Daddy i miss you. =D hope all is well.

pls jus tell me how sweet is that.

miss ya too erzi.alot alot alot.

thanks captain greenboy for listening.haha. my philo tutor apparently has a green blog u know and my tutorial group gang hao falls under this green blog.haha qiao isnt it. thanks really for making my night alot alot better than it was...and ending it perfectly=)

wishing you could jus say smth
to make it feel better
make it feel nicer
make it feel stronger

wishing you could jus tell me
smth that would make me smile
smth that would make me more relieved
smth that would dispel any bad thoughts inside

wishing you could jus kill the fear
drop the pain
and kick the rain all away

wishing.for smth that aint gonna happen.
wishing

2006-08-20T13:00:00.000+08:00

sadness to happiness in a split second. apple finally picked my call.was pretty jittery as i really wanted to find out if my dearest ipod was in good working condition after i sent it to ICU. amazingly so the answer was :

guy: its ready for collection
me: so its repaired??
guy: no for apple ipod we dont repair them its a 1 for 1 exchange
me: no charge?
guy: yeps.
me: *SMILING* 0.o SHOCKED!but damn happie

can u jus imagine that! i really didnt know sucha thing existed and the best part is that my warranty has expired as well =D =D!!!! but seriously one hell of a lesson learnt. to keep my ipod in a nice metal container at all times. away from any human touch except my own in my house or to people whom i TOTALLY trust. but for now. i am happie hee.

its a damn hot day today. think the garlic onion and chilli concoction is seriously working way too well. no one believed that it would work really. this kinda thing is really some old trick i learnt from scgs. believe it or not we use BLACK MAGIC *ooh* haha to prevent it from raining on our campfire day we put garlic onion and chilli underneath the trees in the courtyard. stpd? u might think so and i really dun blame u but since yesterday we celebrated bro 16 bdae haha why not give it a shot isnt it. the thing worked super. sun came out and cleared away the cloudy sky jus aft i put them there ard the garden. coincidental? maybe? but i would think otherwise *winks*

uni is jus bout getting underway. i witnessed someone fainting that day in school. i didn go up to help cus there were 2 people who were helping already but i ensured that i gave the victim enough air and breathing space. all i did was stand there and watch and observe the people around her. this is what i saw.

1) someone drinking smth from subway and walking past the gal on the floor WITHOUT a glance
2)people jus talking in their small groups not bothering whatsoever
3)other ppl looking but fat butts jus plonked on the seat. within 1 min attention turned away.

i wanted to offer her a drink but the person attending to her beat me to it..but kinda helped to bring her bags to the chair while they moved her from the floor to the chairs nearby. i mean COME ON. the worse of the lot were those that kept standing ard and had to be asked to move away. singaporeans. courtesy and love.
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posted at 6.21pm

didn do much today. resulting to blogging twice in a day. but then again. i jus read a friends blog. and i saw 4 words that were shouting out at me for some reason.

i miss you and cherish.

how many times have u said u missed someone when you really did. how many times did u choose to keep quiet cus u didn wan that friend to think u are some freak seeing him or her jus not too long ago then suddenly missing them again. how many times have u missed the chance to show a little care and appreciation to the people whom u love the most around u. how many times have you jus taken that brilliant opportunity and thrown it away cus u felt that you didnt wanna overuse the word. (is there sucha thing) how many times have you sat in ur lecture theatres and jus thought bout the friends that you once had...the friends that had helped u thru the respective schooling years of your life and the friends that have been with you through out but seemingly lost contact with. does it mean that if u were to talk to this person everyday it would show that u care very much bout him or her? or is it the content of each msg or each call that really matters.

how many times have u felt that u show utmost appreciation to others but dun get them back in return. expectations one might say. but who is actually free of them other than God himself. who can willingly sacrifice His own Son jus to save us all and still not want anything in return.

boredom mus be hitting me into thinking bout such things.haha.but its food for thought.

cherish.a simple word with alot of effort needed to be put into accomplishing. do u show that u cherish the people around u..or do you jus expect the person to know and understand. show the care spread the love! =) expecting people to know u care would nv work. show it.

2006-08-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

mia for a pretty long time already.shall get my blogging thinking cap back on before it disappears again for another period. to aardvark: sorry la!haha didnt know u were into reading blogs eh! nxt time jio me play bball together ok.haha cant wait and lunch with you was pretty good today as well =D thx pal!

had my first 2 lectures and one more to go tmr before another 2 on friday. its been a pretty good and slack week so far i must admit! having quite abit of fun in lecture as well since the lecturers are all busy doing their intros to the topics and stuff and busy dissing other departments in very sneaky ways. psych lecturer was pretty queer..and mighty weird!! has very gay movements and super dramatised actions which makes me wonder why he isnt in theatre studies *thinks* BUT he is one hell of a funnie man. uses our daily lingo like damn screwed up and what not.i must say it does take time to getting used to lecturers speaking in the exact way we do. so much more pleasing to the ears!

sea guy today was hilarious. told us we could call him dr j or dr irving or anyth cus no one gets it right anyway like OK! and was wondering if it was orange day since he saw a bunch of strangers wearing orange sitting together in the lecture theatre. yes his favourite topic of sex and gender and saying that he couldn mention too much now *hints of all sorts given* and he did tell us that almost every lecture we would be watching videos and there would be one where we would have to plan our own field trip. take videos photos blah to places like lucky plaza..ginza or peninusula to see what kind of people congregate there. so happens that each of these places hold either vietnamese communities, myanmmar ones or thai ones as well. pretty interesting to think bout it. people would jus go in thinking its a shoppin centre but here we are going in LOOKING for elements of south east asia. AHHH..the brain is actually back on working track and order.

though the course does seem pretty interesting.the projects and stuff to be done are EVEN MORE pleasing and entertaining.not to mention the thick course readings that i would have to do every single time and the thick txtbooks that need to be bought. jus brought home the psych and sea ones..ah *back is broken* i conclude that i should bring my old school bag to school.haha strap on both shoulders.so much more shu fu can!! =D

would be taking jap studies tmr...with kaiwai!luisa..gilyn..and i think maria tan and her gang im not too sure.cant rem which lectures i share with her cus i only rem glancing thru the class roster once. *so helpful* so maybe would be able to meet more of them tmr and make new pals again! now is the make new friend period.haha. coming to the tutorials. going to be balloting for them on friday hopefully i would get my prefered ones then i can have good early days!

let me xuan yao abit. most of my tutorials are FORTNIGHTLY.yes which means that they are held once every 2 weeks and so happens that most of them are odd week tutorials.not sure how good this would be but it just translates to me being busy free busy free and the cycle jus carries on from there. so hoping that i get a proper timing for each tut so that yes...i can at least have a 4 day week with early days. enough time to NO NO NO not slack but yeah catch up on readings or do proj works and stuff like that *winks* the hardworking soul has finally emerged from the depths of the ocean. *HOPEFULLY*

its been a longer post compared to the previous one.albeit slightly boring as well but forgive me! had an interesting combi lunch today at the DECK..which is DAMN BLOODY HIGH UP with SO MANY STEPS TO CLIMB. definitely the place fits the name. anw lunched with abby lak and greenboy. yeah since greenboy had trng he came down to pei me for lunch! thx dear =D yeps and it was not too bad with all of them. though a weird combi it still turned out fine in the very end! went out with him aft that since my school ended in ONE HOUR today. yes. tried on so many haivaianas slippers but to my horror and dismay! dear greenboy hAS giGANTIC feet.size 12 cant fit him. eeps. now mus think of another thing already...

bro bdae this saturday.alot of people would be ard.cus parents love to make 16th bdae a big big bash which i find very sweet of them to do as well. still rem mine.was damn hot lar..everyone was jus having fun from all ages and i made waterbombs and AMBUSHED people haha in the end we jus started spraying and PLAYING ard with the hose. damn fun. good memories. sweet 16. seems like a long long time ago now.

oh n meiz..would tell u new time table when i do get! hopefully its good!and u deserve a big big hug from me!!!*take care always dearie*

2006-08-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

I AM SAD!!!!

do u know the feeling of happily opening up ur nice black pouch to see a very nice white coloured ipod nano inside...only to see the screen CRACKED!!! @#$)(*)(# n the whole world suddenly comes crashing down. can only see the bottom half of the screen and cant see some other things as well. dunno if it can be fixed and am highly doubtful that it can but oh wells..shall go find out and hear the ultimate truth for myself *gulps* and i always keep my stuff well. if it can be fixed *cross fingers* i shall put it in a metal case that cannot even be dented. damn the person who did this to it..it was jus happily sitting on my table for some time already..haiz. the ups and downs of life just love to come and make a dig at you.

happie to say i am up ready and roaring to go.suddenly getting the feeling that nus university studies are just coming straight at me. realise that i cant sit back and slack anymore. have to get up and start being more proactive in finding out stuff bout nus and all that. ccas and everything to do with them. my aim this time is to ensure that i get a good all rounded education there. i gave up sports in jc to focus on council. a decision that i still cant say is right or something that i dun regret doing. but then again..its done and i shall aim to not make the same mistake again. somehow i always get back to doing union council prefect stuff. maybe its jus something within. we shall see this time round!buck the trend in myself!

i am only seeing a black ferrari at my neighbours house.thats all i see now.ahhhhhhh.

driving can jus wait.i dun mind waiting anymore =)

2006-08-04T16:12:00.000+08:00

had been sick for a week. sore throat of extreme pain. probs with sleeping every other day. problems with eating and swallowing. problems with moving around since i feel like an old lady half the time through. had to drag myself up to school. jus to go thru numerous talks that were filled with information of the highest quality YET none could really penetrate my mind. either the words were too profound OR my mind was of too high a quality to be able to understand such worthless terms. how excruciating the week had been. both physcially and mentally.

at this juncture.thanks to greenboy. the amount of love and care shown through out was second to none. you were constantly there..listening to my nonsense many times over without complain. with only encouraging words and heartfelt support you led me thru the week. it was made really alot easier with your msges and calls and definitely the surprise visit was really a damn big surprise. what an interesting way to come to my place but yeah...i thank you so much for it all.

to meiz as well.it was super to hear your encouragement be it through messaging or through phone calls. the visit yesterday was really excellent too. spending time tog jus b4 both our schedules start kicking into place was truly memorable to me. thanks very very much! super appreciative. may such meetings come often enough in the future =) one days...of all kinds await us.

feeling so much better today. body and face broke out in rashes but its alright cus its the ending stages of it all. i am jus damn thankful to get out of this whole damn situation. bidding really took its toll. the talks really took all its toll and im grateful that im finally back on track and on the road to recovery.whoots! bidding.here i come on monday.

2006-07-26T15:20:00.000+08:00

taxi drivers can really make you or break you.first they make u so happie when they somehow appear in front of you at the wave of a hand. then they ask REALLY POLITELY where you would like to go..with the added bonus of a big SMILE. next they would somehow beat all the traffic lights..and the traffic along the way to bring u to your destination in one piece. sometimes they even charge u less..which brings a smile to YOUR face as well. how nice taxi drivers can get!!

BUT

how could we ever forget the times that they BREAK YOU!? first..they would rather wait for the midnight charge and fetch NOBODY when they could haf earned at least abit from you. next they just LOVE to cut in front of you SUDDENLY..or stop at the sides of the roads irregardless of whether ur car is within 1cm of hitting it due to their negligent action. not to forget..when there are 2 L plates on your car...they REFUSE to give way to u..since they feel that they have been victimised all the time so this would be the ABSOLUTELY PERFECT chance to get back at you..causing u to swerve..

1) hit somebody?
2) get out of his way but still get horned at by the world
3) put urself in a life and death situation *EEPS*
4) TESTER PUTS HIS HAND ON YOUR WHEEL AND PULLS YOU BACK INTO THE LANE = IMMEDIATE FAILURE

and you think taxi drivers are not important? they are SOO important! they are part of our everyday lives! how can we jus NOT HAVE THEM!??!but according to someones LAW..things that you want now are never there and things that you dun want are jus lying around.

does that jus sum up my driving test today?

2006-07-23T22:24:00.000+08:00

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here
but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling

And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

2006-07-18T13:11:00.000+08:00

was a pretty sad last day at my dearest pats school house on friday. brought secret recipe cake for all the teachers to eat..jus nice to show my appreciation to every single one of them there. its not easy to find a job where u love to do and have alot of fun doing. many temp jobs are office deskbound jobs..9-5 kinda things. some are waitressing long hours with meagre pay others are just ad-hoc organisers of different events. most people would complain bout how tiring the job is..or how sian it can get since companies would not trust a temp with heavy paperwork. which is why i am particularly lucky to be able to get a job at pats. interestingly enough...it was where i first started my kindergarten education and as the saying goes "what comes around goes around" ended up back there.teaching kids. or more like playing with them and for 6 an hr..half day job. what more could u ask for. kids can jus make u smile...and feel that the world is slightly better than what you think it is. their laughter and innocence jus trascends beyond any boundaries and whats more is that their show affection knows no limits. yes..there is the usual crying..complaining..hitting biting and what nots.but beyond that..there are eager minds..eager eyes learning observing and looking at what you are doing.

the satisfaction gained when they actually learn so much from your teachings or jus ur guidance is beyond words can express. this boy called vincent has emerged from a non talker...to someone so expressive and cute. and he finally said my name on the last day!!!haha =) was sooo surprised but yet damn happie inside as well. to hear that the parents are so proud of him and so thankful for our guidance makes me smile from end to end. tears welled up seeing him leave the school. really would miss him and of course CHANG CHANG! my dearest boy.haha.
CHANG

VINCENT

ASHTONGEORGE

not to forget..teachers. colleagues. friends. it has been an extrememly pleasant time at PAts with you guys.and yES MS SHAREEN.damn big shout out to you here ok. thanks really for everything. haha from day one till now our friendship has really improved very much! sharing and crapping alot more as well. its a shame to have to leave jus as things were getting pretty underway but then again i know that this wont be the end of it yeah!=pmaybe when i do learn ALL THE THINGS that i have to FROM YOU..then i can go be a night life buddie haha. jiayou okie! the kids are tough..but YOU ARE TOUGHER.ha.trust my friend.trust.oh yeah extortion of things!!! see here!!!

end things off.pats.the start of it all. and the end of it.

2006-07-11T19:10:00.000+08:00

its been quite a good week for me. as some people would know..jus forever busy. alw having something to do and something popping out from somewhere to keep me occupied.i can nv phantom how people can jus laze at home and stone for a large part of their lives. sure way of gaining on the pounds and keeping the flabs.jus the way to go.

been watching videos that nuria has been making.hilarious.first it was ntu now it has evovled into mikail dancing his jackson moves.way cool! when its her turn to put it up..i would be first to watch it =)

world cup fever is over and done with. shareen came dressed sooo decently today.ooh boy. sucha change from her usual look. and yes her fav italy has won. les blues...a sad finish but still a respectable zidane to me. convincingly one of the best players ever. which player hasnt had their chance to hit the headlines due to something bad.the media would take any chance to blow things up but hey..was worth the effort since now they talk more about him head butting the dumb meterrazzi and less talk on italy actually winning the cup. talk bout grabbing headlines. this is A grade.

things someone is actually willing to sacrifice and do for some other person is baffling. how is it that you can feel such a strong want to give your all just for that one person to ensure that his or her journey remains as smooth as possible or jus care that much to go the extra mile for that particular person. in such cases..need not have to be bout being in bgr.i think it can happen for friends as well. the power that bonds 2 people together is really fascinating to some extent. to have such friends. do treasure. they are seriously one in a million.or gazillion.*blessed*

thx for providing a wonderful night and morning captain. very much loved, cared and believed in. =)

now that school is jus bout to start.friends leave in all directions.paths.and countries.many of my closest buddies wont be schooling with me anymore.talk bout insecurity. then again.when the effort is made.friendships would pull through. sc exco. sc bball. joy. zeying. abby. lingli. dage. pri sch buddies. and to add to the list meiz. fel. miah. haubi. captain. you have been my pillars of strength when the world seemed to grow cold. even in time to come confident that our palships would pull through as well yeps!

fel: nus business come find me yeah.haha.i will drive u home...IF I HAF A CAR in the first place and pray that i do pass my driving test!its coming..damn scared suddenly.

haubi: pls keep being my reality tv..and all the hk serial tv watching buddie!

miah: ah you you.if u do read this.KEEP UR PROMISES!!haha.but yes you hav done a super job so far..its been a blessing to know you..*smile*

meiz: many ONE DAYS to fulfill..many celebrations to come when we do pass our driving and definitely to me..many more years of good solid friendship. *sisters always* (pawpaw) clubbing!??!?!?haha :p

erzi: miss you already you! rem its nv too late to pick yourself up from bad falls erzi..theres alw the same lauba to shout to at the corridors .

zeying: glad to see that you are still up and surviving. wish ya all the best in ur As.

captain: dun worry bout the shuaiges in uni.haha! trust.faith.love.still awaiting the time for you to drive me! sfy 11.

2006-07-08T12:05:00.000+08:00

its sad to know that some of your close friends since primary and secondary school times are now heading off on journeys that not everyone would have to chance to experience. some are leaving to uk.some to the us and others to australia. they would embark on a learning experience which would make them alot more independent and creative to a certain extent. the teaching methods overseas would be very much different from the stringent and definite methods that singapore adopts. staying in hostels there would mean cooking, cleaning and taking care of all daily expenses. having to be a homemaker, student, accountant all at the same time. ive always wondered what it would be like to stay away from home for a couple of months jus to come home each time for a short one month break. you meet new people, have new friends but yet never forget the ones that truly mean so much to you back home. having the chance and giving it up was a big decision that i had to make. but i know that i made the right one. though people would tell me that there is no qian tu for doing the course that i wish to in singapore, but i just couldnt bring myself to go overseas and leave the people behind. though many of my friends are leaving too.. i guess my heart took the better of me and i realised the course that i wanted to do there was useless as well. so yes. shall stand firmly in singapore and make the best out of what i have.

had an exco gathering on thursday. boy was it fun! overslept so reached there bout half an hr late but i didnt go empty handed!! brought in mudpie from island creamery to the delight of all my 6 other pals there. jojoy, vidz, hannah, kaiwei, samtan, grace. a bunch of friends that came from different backgrounds and classes. made to become exco members had to handle our prefect batch with many threatening to step down. we made it through together guys. save for bron who has alr left for melb. it was one hell of a ride with you all and i am glad that the tradition of meeting up has jus ctd on and on way past our years in scgs. hopefully when the rest leave we would still be able to have a full gathering come xmas k. n yes. it would be at my place =)

have to go for nus med check soon. so mahfan.cant stand havin to do all that crap and the queueing up.sounds pretty disgusting.bleh. haha REMEMBER to take of all NECKLACES and RINGS and what nots..cus.some people there are BLIND and make you go thru the whole thing again. *nus smu ntu*

went out with captain! was a pretty cool outing watched CARS FINALLY!! it was very very nice. the whole show was a far cry from the reviews given for the WILd and i am glad that i manged to catch it in the very end.with good company as well no doubt. improvement from 0 to 50 but there is 50 more and beyond. how sweet is that. and capt wants to read a book bout 911 and the whole conspiracY!!!!! *kudos!!!*

2006-07-03T14:34:00.000+08:00

listening to jing sha cd now.quite nice! some songs really quite cute =) didnt make it for seb stayover in the end.cus wasnt feeling too good and had a BETTER thing to do as well so yes. sorry if i seem to mia all the time.not been the best of timings.

really happie that there isnt any school (work) today.jus needed that break to keep me surviving for the rest of the 2 weeks that i would be there.consulted some people and i think its better to end mid july instead of the end. need some time to myself to settle things and get all the uni stuff ready. MENTAL PREP to get myself in sync with school life which i haf been HAPPILY missing since the end of As..which seem so far away at this point in time.

school time is the best. i miss sc so much. went back for guides campfire on friday. before that erzi asked me to play basketball with the jnrs so hell yeah i decided to go back and exercise those old and riggety joints of mine. really paid off. did a super wonder shot which came out of no where hahaha to the applause of the people playing there. that moment alone brought back so many memories of the times i played competitively or even jus during friendly matches during training. miss it alot. reminded me of the time we played captains ball for jessica church event as well. really love that feeling of playing a sport competitively be it for a school or for the fun of it. shall go find something and call up a team again.ready to join me? haha =)

the guides campfire was like some big reunion for all of us.not met some of them in a few years and it was really good jus sitting ard..singing songs doing actions that many on the outside would see and think that we are dumb. guys would think that its jus gay.but no.its not. at least to the many guides and scouts there. we jus sang our hearts out and talked alot more and did funnie actions..it was damn nice to reminiscise in everything that was happening. jus thinking back on how we used to prepare so hard for this night alone was super satisfying. managed to catch up with some tchrs there and hannah chia! not stepped into sc for such a long time and now once again stepping into the school that i once hated to the core made me feel slightly guilty. this was the school that gave me so many opportunities. that provided me with friendships that have lasted up till now at least. gave me the opp to feel what it was like to hurt and be hurt in return. thought me the meaning of what it is like to lead a team and be led. let me experience very painful failure and sweet victory. gave me a chance when i was down and out to come back strong again. in short. NEVER GAVE UP ON ME. tchrs and friends alike.

sc:

through the years wherever we go

with one voice and on heart

gather in our memories

and never be apart

till we meet again where we all stand as one

thru the years with one voice and one heart

nv forget who we are where we go near or far

we will always stand as one.

people ask me if i prefer hc or scgs better. they both helped me in different ways. met many wonderful people in both schools which have affected my life in different and special ways. many people whom i would never ever wanna forget and never ever wanna lose contact with. im sure u would know who u are.

and i sincerely.thank you.

2006-06-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

i suddenly have the want to listen to zhou jie lun songs. heard it yesterday when i went to marina square. ate at asian kitchen..and i decided to be nice and try the vietnamese coffee which i know is really different and good. they would let the coffee slowly drip down from a container which they place over the cup preventing the coffee powder from going thru to the drink as well. it was SUPER SUPER BITTER! couldnt finish it..had to fly a white flag and woon had to help me drink it up. lucky the cup was rather small. damn bitter. bad bad. shall not be gung ho and try that kinda thing again. and i got branded as someone who cannot chiku!

NOT TRUE. *sticks tongue*

had to run home after that from marina..BUT EVERY DAMN CAB THAT PASSED US BOTH JUS DIDNT WANT TO STOP FOR! darn it. i was super pissed off! like what is wrong with these cabbies. it was only 10pm! so no EXTRA SURCHARGE YET and the time for it to start was still FAR FAR AWAY yet they refused to stop.the MOST qian da guy was the one that just had to swith his bright green taxi sign to ON CALL when i raised my hand to flag it down. i cursed all the cabbies yesterday. they dare say they dun get any money when they themselves do not want to stop for people like me. its alw the case where u are rushing home or to somewhere and a cab jus does not want to appear for u. so unlike tv shows where they run out from their hdb flat and there a hand wave and the taxi stops for u. like HELLO!!! what a lie. blatant. took bus back and reached home at bout 11.15 instead of my 10pm.eeps.heng my mum was in a good mood and didn kill me.

though that was the way the night ended. it was still super nice to receive my nice SFY 11. thanks sooo much! very sweet gesture and really thoughtful of you as well =) its sitting nicely on my table would always be there.which means that i am always reminded of it!soo....dream better become reality! haha patience is the key. *hugs ya*<3>

today was alright. managed to go for brons farewell thing! went the wrong way though.ended up near serangoon then had to take bus back to the opp side! haha FXH and i..best! super on the same frequency today. she wants to take speech therapy and i wanna do child psych.so yes. thats the way to go.set up school HAHA.oh my. what a thought. met many sc pals that i have not seen in a long long time! theng theng.jo lee.lynette.asha met jialing as well the hc one.and a hc jnr! small world. long long walk into andrews house though..15 mins there about!? crazy. all the houses there are big! saw this one with a super super nice swimming pool outside with white figurines ard the pool..and wooden doors and stuff.super super nice. *dream*

so.yes.nice day.nice talk with meiz yesterday too.ha save for bro talking.sleeep get better yes dearie!

2006-06-23T18:09:00.000+08:00

OCS!!! =)

2006-06-23T18:07:00.000+08:00

something that jojoy did for all of us.and good pic to put too since many are leaving sg!boohoo.miss ya guys!

2006-06-23T18:06:00.000+08:00

chang looking super dao.*oops.i disturbed his sleep*

2006-06-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

how can i ever forget miss zara ho.beauty of the school. *guy magnet*

2006-06-23T18:04:00.001+08:00

biter boy changed cute lovable and adoring kiddo

2006-06-23T18:04:00.000+08:00

woon kae.pretty kid

2006-06-23T18:02:00.000+08:00

my dearest cousin keagen

2006-06-23T15:07:00.000+08:00

i always wonder how people can just get together for a few months and mutually break off not due to inability to click with each other or problems that could not be solved. its the simple case of one party leaving to study in another country. since most of us can agree that long distance relationships dun really last especially at this age where we are continuously exposed to different people and different situations.feelings change.situations change. at sucha age its also difficult to really know how far your relationship would take you and i would say that people wont haf that 100% confidence that it would lead to marriage. bout 90% of relationships now would not have a happie ending and 10yrs down the road u would be thinking and laughing to yourself at how innocent those relationships then were. interesting to know that some friends of yours are embarking on relationships as the one i mentioned above..happie to be tog for that few months and say byebye after that. is this called a fling? where and what is the basis of the whole relationship? love is blind. *bang!shot in both eyes*

grandma is still not doing well in malacca. she has been moved from the icu to a normal ward if i have heard correctly but she is still in a coma. docs thought that it was 2 blood clots..but on a further scan done a few days ago.the situation is bad. bout 3 clots.2 on right one on left. but the damage done on the right side of the brain is pretty extensive.which is a problem. reason why she is still lying in a coma is that there is a plague which moves ard the body's blood vessels. when the arteries constrict and narrow this plague would get stuck forming a clot.so..if it happens in the heart a heart attack would ensue..if it happens in the brain..a stroke would occur.for her there is this clot over the central system..which is the connector to bodily functions hence..if the clot stays there.she would be in a coma.she can hear us though.when we talk and stuff she tries to respond but cant hence the fustration. auntie asked her if she wanted to go home and tears came out of her eyes. gosh. what a sight. my first time into the icu there..seeing her lie so still.was...heartbreaking. parents and popo (mum side) went up to see her today. hope that they would bring slightly more positive news. oh wells even if she does wake up she wont be the same person as she was before due to the damage. eeps.

i pray for a miracle

aside from that.having driving soon. almost got whacked by another car that day. damn scary. which kinda screwed up my whole circuit practice cus the whole time i jus couldnt park my car properly. kept over turning and dunno what things. hit the curb as well. darn it. my aim for today is to park smoothly in..and have a perfect circuit. i must and i can.

have to pull out my wisdom tooth pretty soon.someone save me. woon! u made it sound so scary u toot head!

and meiz!glad u are back safe and sound! good that you managed to have a great day out yesterday too! *hugs* we need to talk!~ooh.pls dun fall sick too.ha.listen to doc chan yeah.

2006-06-19T14:30:00.000+08:00

yay kudos to greenboy for playing super well and steering his team into the semis! down 2-0 to win his game to make it 2-1 before an overall 3-2 win!proness. could jus sense his joy over the msg that he sent.great job!win it for ur team maybe you would play stealth koh in the finals again haha this time whack him flat..im sure he wont get 3 lucky chances!

was reading jasin blog.so many people supporting argentina now only cus england is jus flailing with scrappy 1-0 and 2-0 wins over teams that you would expect them to jus romp over. their goals are less then flattering as well.with so muc fire power inside i am really wondering why is it that england boast of so much strength and power but yet jus fail to deliver. i felt that spains choice of dropping raul was jus brilliant.aboslutely.now is time for england to do the same.drop the big old names and bring on players like lennon.young fresh blood who have the hunger and drive to win it. prob sven is jus getting old and isnt able to tap onto the players talents anymore. so many attack minded players and yet no room to trouble the opponents weird. and people are onto argentina cus of their 6-0 romping if not they wont bother about them either. at least one thing is for sure that the big names are all coming up alive now.except for poor france which seems to have lost their touch of being able to dominate and score.henry is jus proving to the world how much of a letdown he is on the big stage as well.eeps.

jus goes to show big names doesnt mean big games.they could be flops as well.

with no channel to watch..i shall jus grab the chance tonight to rewatch my absolute favourite LOTR episode..and watch the switz togo match after that. i wonder how appealing it would be anyway. nba finals game 5 is on. shall watch the replay later on. sucha tv junkie.

ever felt like scolding a kid was jus useless.after awhile the kid forgets and does the same thing again.at times u tell them 10x and at the 10th..u jus blow up and put the kid on some naughty chair.the kid cries. may throw some big tantrum but he learns aft that to not do sucha thing again. i wonder how come we cant do the same for adults sometimes. people are so stubborn. n what is worse is that after all the fights.shouts.arguments. it jus comes down to nothing in the end. the person either doesnt understand why u jus scolded him for...he is jus number one in line to use that oh so meaningless word "sorry" OR the person jus doesnt wish to accept ur scolding and in turn becomes rebellious OR the person may jus put everything into one ear and dump the remnants into the bin. we lead such sad sorry lives at times dun we. bringing about problems to ourselves. but what hurts the most is the fact that the person doesnt understand...and jus tells u that he/she does. when the truth comes to light. u finally get a big slap on the face. cus.u realise that.hey.ur effort making the person understand jus went down the drain. your effort of trying so hard to put ur pts across jus flew into the sky cus all the person ever wanted was for u to calm down and apologise and to quickly move on.the person wouldn even bother trying to clarify or come back to it cus he/she felt that it wasnt impt to clear up this set of thoughts or opinions.

worse thing is that if u tell someone that..that person would jus deny it.n say that you are thinking too much...or jus over reacting to the situation at hand.

hard life.psychologist...to understand how the mind works.

2006-06-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

how can u ever forget this picture.hpps6A'99! me.janice (gorilla cus she wasnt there) jialing yuqing aka fish peiying mia 4eva jamie cool funky chick and yilin..YL!

2006-06-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

i have finally completed something that i have never thought i would have touched in my entire life. cross stiching.haha.yes.cherie cross stiching.it was a damn good experience actually and i came to realise that it really isnt that bad after all. shall put up a pic of my nice piece of artwork. no its not cus i am too free and its def not cus i am too bored. did it for meiz bdae.yeah.one of the nicest presents yet okie so better be honoured you! yeah though i did give myself away with me telling u about my hardened fingers.oh wells. small price to pay for a damn good outcome.love it.jus managed to give it to her before she left for her trip yes. the feeling of accomplishment still runs deep within me! all right!!!~

now i can finally sit back and relax and watch my nice tv shows.for the past 2 weeks just been listening and hardly watching properly cus i was rushin it out but now i can! yay! and borrowing somemore vcds from woon.thanks dear! and yeah shall return the rest of them to u even if ur bag gets super heavy nvm lar okie..train up haha lift weights!hope u dun ache like crap tmr if not cannot play properly le.jiayou!be ANTI STEALTH.

can u imagine someones name being stealth..and the guy isnt that young either.eeps. poser is the word.

talked to my mum this afternoon.managed to get a girly outing with her today and i forgot to get my skirt from j8!!arghargh!!!last piece!but nvm she told me my dad could control a catamaran.omg.can u imagine that.i knew my dad could make his own furniture from kitchen cupboards to dressing tables to sofas..i knew he could cook and tie knots and start fires effortlessly...i knew he was super knowledgable in many aspects..i knew he could fly a plane but captaining a boat!?!??! that was super new.she was saying that they went to hawaii once with the crew and they rented this boat and my dad captained it.ahhhhhhhh. i love my dad. so pro! and that was what my mummy was attracted to, the fact that he was so much more qiang then she was and that she knew she could kao on him forever. ah. sweet. which kinda hit some thought into me.does it matter if the guy you are with isnt as good as you are in certain aspects or must the guy be better than u in all aspects.

is it important if the guy u eventually go out with is more capable than you? tag freely. i wanna know what u guys think.

i would choose to say that the guy definitely has to step up to the plate. the girl cant always be better in all aspects it would crush the guys ego in the first place. the gal would see no reason why she has to kao this kinda guy when she can probably do very well on her own. which would bring me to the ability to find that special one. is love all there is to it in a relationship to keep it surviving or are there other factors that have to play a part as well. how much would a girl be able to take if the guy doesnt seem to be able to provide the key to her heart that she is looking for. will time play a big part in helping the guy get the key? or is it jus something simple that the guy isnt the key that she is looking for? *disclaimer any points written here are not pointing to anyone in anyway possible..they are just opinions and thought provoking comments*

there has to be a balance b/w 2 ppls lives. u cannot depend on that one person to live other than God. this i truly believe in.

2006-06-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

the want to listen

the need to understand

the want to improve

the need to show care concern love.

the want to believe

the need to trust

the want to forgive

the need to forget.

thru all the wants and needs.i thank God.for giving me people.who truly UNDERSTAND.

i thank you *paws*

2006-06-02T13:54:00.000+08:00

sun is burning super brightly down at the moment.kinda scorches your skin as you walk under it. afternoon sun. too hot for my liking. cant imagine how i managed to survived training under this hot sun three times a week every week without fail. goodness no wonder i became so black. i wonder how many of my skin cells died each time as well. i prefer the morning sun. this morning was a very brilliant one. the golden rays shone into the house giving it a nice orangey glow. as i walked to work today the cool breeze blew and you could hear all the birds chirping away.the sun baked down..and it was a very pleasant walk i must admit.very very enjoyable. you jus take your mind off everything and really whistle as u walk.haha.

school has been alright for me.jus super super crapped up these days with woon kae coming in every morning without failing to cry and vomit on herself.i wonder why kids do this to themselves what extreme torture my ears have to endure as she screams her lungs out. but aft that one moment. peace prevails. however in a short 10 mins a boy named sean yeo comes into class being carried by this grandma. his eyes are teary and watery..his nose is red. SIGNS = CRYING. once he comes into my aunties arms..thats it.all hell breaks loose. he cried non stop today and i do mean every part of the word NON STOP. it was crazy. the teachers that were around all couldnt stand him and the cleaning and cooking aunties that came in could not bear to stay for more than 5 mins. he kept repeating the same words " call mummy...i wan mama to pick me up...i wan mama to carry me" erps. not that i have not tried to tolerate such behaviour but i have other kids in class and he doesnt warrant all my attention. he was alright yest.today he did his crying screaming marathon and won first prize.can u believe that? i fully understand why haubi hates kids..cus this guy has tested my patience to the limit of the limits (i am a patient person). darn it. hope we can break him soon. BUT..ive been at pats for a good 5 months now. it has been one of the best exp i could ever have. shall do some photo collage for them.yes. meiz wanna do with me?hahahaha.

yes.projects to come soon.lets hope that everything goes well and super smooth yups? *paw* nice people we are..always will be.=)

celebrated meiz bdae that day and i must say it was a blast! thank the skies it didnt rain and most of all thanks to all the people who put in so much effort for this!.... couldn have been done without all our careful consideration and planning!yes easy going bunch of guys. =) hugs ya all.

definitely a night to remember alw. =) i think its cool to have a bunch of friends who would alw make that effort to do something special for you on your bdae..even if its jus going to a house..or park..or eating dinner together.they bother. we've done this kinda thing for awhile and its just very heartwarming to know that these are the people whom u can kao on..these are the people who arent just normal aqquaintances. these are the people who you can truly truly call your friends those that go thru thick and thin with you. and yes meiz..if u arent one of them.no one else will=) *bdae present coming right up!*

went on a shopping escapade with woon yesterday.damn brilliant.i think making him try all the different colours they had at gio was hilarious. and yes GREEN BOY.i think u can pull that colour off...and many other colours actually.haha. we concluded that he should get shirts with prints on them..tee shirts yups.lols.glad u liked ur buys! more of such outings to come yeps. =) hugs! welcome the new looking woon.

2006-05-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

watched singapore idol today.how comical can people get.tsk tsk. the things people do just to be on tv and flaunt themselves??? some of them really cant sing and they think they can i quote " i am a HERO" by miss doe-rae-mi. mr careless whisper came once again..like FOR WHAT? and another 2 goofballs..one is paul twohill is that him? he looks REALLY mad. " you smell pretty" HAHAHA.gurmit must have fainted. not to mention cowboy who doesnt open his mouth to speak and GONGFU MASTER chinese ed person. diao. haha BUT. some people were really good i have to admit.those 17yr old gals.rjc.and of course siew woon. brilliant. hopefully we really see good talent this time around. was surprised to know that taufik won an mtv asia award.haha.thought he jus disappeared from the scene or something like that. jus somehow feel that chinese singers have greater opportunities to prove themselves in singapore and else where in the region as compared to english ones. how saddening. lifes like that. but after saying all that..what would be an audition w/o ppl like NONG NONG..haha.all for laughs.it was good fun.

i think american idol auditions are more funnie. and i hope kat wins though my feelin tells me that taylor is going to get it.hmm. we shall wait and see.

many things to do this week.going to be rather hectic. hope spurs win tmr!!ahhh.game 7 in san antonio..exciting. watched da vinci code that day.was alright lar nothing too great but i enjoyed the book alot alot.very very well written and the way he does it jus makes u wanna sit there and read on and on. cast doubts on ur faith as well but at the very end it really depends on what u believe in. i totally agree with an advert that meiz sent to me that day. what matters most is what u think and believe in.it doesnt matter what other ppl say after that. cus its up to you to decide the path to take.the faith to believe in if at all. i truly have seen the magic of our Lord work and i really believe in Him.so i really dun see why you should quarantine yourself from things like harry potter or dvc for that matter. to each his own.

4hrs.4 hrs. the longest ever i tell u.it was crazy.hiding from my mum.haha under the blanket and whispering dead into the night.gosh. gals would always be gals huh. bao bao meiz! she did niao me abit today but oh wells.nothing much! hee =) *jealousy?*hahaha.hope u have a great great outing as well yes.and hopefully it is remembered.

2 listeners remind me of my dage and i.thats why even when we dun talk much at all we are still superbly good pals.seeing each other jus creates that sense of belonging and "brotherliness" i would say. but its alright. when 2 listeners come together the talks that they have are really quite few and far b/w. which can be alright for friends but not that alright if u are in a relationship. one talker one listener would definitely be highly compatible isnt it. but given the situation. wouldnt it be better to try and make more effort to speak and share stuff? in any case. conversations that are held are always carried on with more ideas and more opinions and more experience in sharing. only then would it be able to sustain. if not you would jus be talking bout things happening there and then and there would hardly be any content at all. which isnt that helpful when u wanna understand another person better. which is a point to be worked on. getting there though.getting there. at least this time i foresee something better =) shall happily be my optimistic realist.

the time has come.to end it off.

2006-05-18T23:15:00.000+08:00

i realised i forgot to bold the previous post.OOPS!sorry.do take ur time to read it though the words seem a little small and hard to read NVM..jus try. give ur eyes some exercise as well instead of having everything put nicely for you.haha=) yes hongkong adventure had made me think through alot alot of things.made me rethink many things which i thought i had a firm grip on.made me realise how indecisive i could be on certain things and how much my heart could control my thinking instead of my head. i would say i am more of a head..person when dealing with important issues at hand though when it comes to people and ren qing or what not i would be more emotional. good balance of both i hope? had 2 good friends talking me thru hk in the hotel room every night which did put alot alot of thoughts into my head which i managed to clear up in the end.it was damn scary and painful but at least its a path to a new beginning. i guess its cus we always focussed alot on knowing each other b4 and putting that time into part of this new thing that we share. after much thought i guess it isnt right. u start anew. u start afresh. things are different from the time the word "yes" was mentioned. it has been taken to a new level. one with alot more challenges and alot more problems. many things that were accepted are just deemed unacceptable and needs to be ironed out.

i agree with meiz. one must do things together before u would truly know how that person reacts in situations or what ideas and opinions that person has.very true.feel that its not done..enough. which she also mentioned.so true.thanks for precious advice that night.so needed.

finally am on the second half of the korean cd.gosh.was looking thru the scv booklet jus now.AH SO MANY NICE SHOWS COMING.i am going to faint watching them all.haha.miao shou ren xin 3 amongst others and some new korean shows. erm one with rain acting in it coming up and that show looks pretty seh.another one is hk one on hotel business and family and stuff. fav actress acting!all right!haha.haubi!pls dun get jealous of me..i promise to give u a FULL REVIEW of the shows ok so that in 3 yrs when they do show it on channel 8 or U u would know which is worth the watch.HAHA.oops (hides)

im jus glad that there were ppl there to help us tide thru whatever that we had to go thru.as i mentioned hopefully its the last major thing.many minor things would pop up once in a while but def not afraid to face them.at least i know im not alone in handling anything.ah friends can b so wonderful.thank you 2 for helping out.it meant alot.really.

okie.up and away.watched amazing race today.the final! ah. the hippies won.was rooting for eric and jem but oh wells. the super cool thing is that they went to JAPAN!yes my next destination! and dubai..and stuff AUSTRALIA..ahhh..*meiz wanna join me?*hee i bet woon u would wanna get outta sg as well huh! but anyway yes they went to japan and had to go to fujikyu highland.its a theme park wif oh so AWESOME ROLLERCOASTERS.oh my.really!i must go to that place in the far future.but whatever it is.i must take those things! haha then fel i wont mind u screaming like there is no tmr cus i think i would be screaming with you *winks* i am sucha junkie for speed adventure and all this kinda stuff. no wonder i like obs.and i really wanna do an overseas obs one day.i must. even if i get bitten to death by mosquitoes (number one monsters in pats) or sandflys.whatever. it would be so cool esp if its winter obs. rocks. *dreams*

the power some people have over u.influence.very interesting.

hong kong brilliance

2006-05-16T19:09:00.000+08:00

had no choice but to put some pics here only..cus FEL HAS THE REST AND SHE HASNT GIVEN THEM TO ME YET.haha.okie.yes screw gmail.cant upload the file and dun worry i dun blame you cus i cant either!roars.well hongkong was pretty cool. with friends like meiz, miah, haubi and fel what more can u ask for. it really rocked to be with this bunch of people and here i would just like to say that it was definitely one hell of a trip with the 4 of you. everything we did was just sooo much fun..ate so much and walked so much.though we didnt buy as much as we would have loved to the memories gained and the experiences that we managed to share there were jus priceless.really treasure u guys more after this trip and yeps..may we have one more to come in the quite FAR FUTURE..*nice thoughts to have* and perhaps we could haf additional people as well =) the picture up there is DISNEYLAND HK. wasnt very bowled over by it i have to admit but hey its jus darn great when you have NO QUEUE and you can take the ride again and again just to make sure that you smile nice and bright at the camera.haha. thought that was absolutely hilarious when we took the space mountain ride 3 times in different positions to get the best shot and of course to hear my dear choir girl scream with haubi.haha.rocking. came out of that ride laughing soooo hard. wasnt the only one meiz was laughing as well. =) hee lets take a more THRILLING RIDE next time ppl..maybe we would scream together then!
ah yes nice picture here. although there are nicer ones to come soon.patience.meiz and i taking a pic under the damn blazing hot sun.it was DAMN HOT! wonder why they have the parade at 330pm with the sun sooo high in the sky with all the dancers sweating..ooh.the cinderella was not pretty yeah.maybe i shall put up a photo of her here.haha oh wells. but i think ariels the best nothing to wear so most cooling. though they should just do the parade in the evening or something! lion king show there was pretty good as well..i realise songs from disney never ever fail to impress and give a long lasting impression on anyone be it young or old. i still get thrilled hearing songs from lion king or beauty and the beast..and they just nv fail to make me feel so magical inside. a very nice feeling i must admit. makes u feel like u are a child once again. although people like meiz would prob feel the same way all this while anyway!haha.oops okie prob me too.=)but yes go disney.ardent fan.i think walt is smart as well..made a theme park which has enjoyed so much success over the years and made so many families so happie time and time again.

yes nice pic with nice stuff behind.5 tired ppl.okie would update moer next time with more time and more pics come in.haha jus had damn alot of fun there.

warmest thanks to meiz.for doing everything u can.all the time. =) we nv fail each other yeah.

and to you.would haf a chance in the future to go abroad.keep that thought alw okie.

2006-05-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

why gals are alw ruling guys

finally.a smile.

2006-05-06T20:31:00.000+08:00

its been some time since i truly smiled.truly was happie without much worry or care and most of all feeling really nice inside.

met meiz yesterday for dinner...haha went to raffles after driving and ate bk cus it was not crowded..there is nothing much to eat at raffles on a weekday night and she had vouchers that expired the next day.kinda got lost finding the square.OOPS!eh sorry ok not that i work there everyday for the past 3 months or something so yes..do forgive my slight ignorance.DIDNT KILL!had a good good time talking i suppose.saved her from a day of BOREDOM!*at least i hope i managed to on and off* yes..but its damn interesting.ppl go to work and are usually busy and filled up to their necks only to qi dai coming home and relaxing.but this meiz is different.she has ABSOLUTELY nothing to do due to her EFFICIENCY *so she says* haha. i choose to believe.yes. so in the end many part timers get their money pretty easily just at the expense of a very happening live. so for all those who finish A lvls this year and are looking for a job.easy money..go work at some office.they wouldnt trust u with VERY impt stuff and would most probably give u the MOST LAN ZHA stuff to do.(not all though).when u haf finished u jus fill up ur uni applications there and use their printers to help your friends and of course yourself, print things out.BRILLIANT. price : $6 / $7 and hour. worth considering.

abby just asked if i wanna work at moe.consider?haha.pats is good for the moment.

watched art of seduction today.realised that more and more korean movies are hitting the singapore movie scene. all thanks to serials like da chang jin and stairway to heaven which paved the way for the korean movie industry. the show was really quite funnie and cute! the lead actress was quite pretty as well and the guy was quite shuai.its a good show to watch i must say! managed to catch it at cine lvl 9!small theatre but really nice =) company was of course one of the best that i could ask for. really glad that it was an outing that was on the extreme end of the number scale today as compared to the previous one. so u say that one doesnt count.fine.may this be a new start to many nicer and happier memories to come.how u count the 3 weeks ah?!? realised we alw meet ppl too.hmm.

yes hongkong is COMING!i am getting more and more excited bout the whole trip.tmr is sunday.would be leaving on tuesday already!ahHH!!its just going to be great trip i can tell.with alot alot alot of shopping to be done.and of course the greatest greatest company ever.meiz.miah.fel.haubi.excellent.guess the trip would not only serve to strengthen our friendship but also help us gain alot more kilos not only on ourselves but also our luggage.haha=) cheers mates!

KIDS ARE TIRING.but i still love them.
ah sucker me.

2006-04-30T10:37:00.000+08:00

meiz suggested that i bold the entry for easy reading.better this time i do hope? yeah think this skin is pretty cute as well!thats why after looking through sooo many finally settled with this. anyway the ultimate scoreline:

manu 0 chelsea 3 at stamford bridge.boohoo.total thrashing.allowed chelsea to win in front of their home crowd and so much for being devastated.chelsea did deserve their win though.they played like champions while the devils were meekly subdued.oh wells.come next season.we shall see who reigns then.for now.GO SPURS!san antonio leading the series 2-0!basketball fever!sucha sports junkie.

its been one day since i closed the chapter earlier on.the feeling was slightly awkward with minimal contact but i do hope that we would be able to move on from here and not take things to hard.emotinal distress must have been evident.but i do hope that we can pick ourselves up from here.its too important for me to just drop and let go.its jus blurry ahead at this point in time hope things would be clearer as we walk along.slow and steady. *reminds me of a tortoise*haha.

elections are getting underway..with everyone going to vote on the 6th of may i shall do something new to.visit haubis house.haha.hopefully we would be able to plan out our nice little hk trip then!oh yeah!dun haf too much fun without me yeps at the airport ok!

something new

2006-04-28T22:40:00.000+08:00

decided to give this blog a makeover.haha.have been browsing through many blogskins the past few days and finally settled on this one. it would be this for the time being.thanks to joy for doing the past 2 for me.decided not to trouble u further so jus went to look up some of the webbys and did some editting to this blogskin..haha quite fun i realised when you actually get down to changing things and seeing the final product of it all.amatuer but oh wells.a good try i must admit myself!!

its not been a very good 2 days.alot of thoughts have just been flowing though my mind with many bad ones nipped in the butt by you. guess w/o you i would have crumbled to the floor already.so thanks very much for listening to my ramblings and my rantings.when i was really at a lost for words u provided that glimmer of hope.the person that benefits from this should thank u greatly for making sure that i dont give up just yet.haha.thanks dearly *big hug to you* well just goes to show that we still need each other dont we..to tackle some similar problems some different...haha [soda]and a hell lotta fun as well. =paw=

the level of thought that different people go through each day of their lives are jus extreme.some of them are just content to stay in their own little protected world, sheltered from the rain and wind by the tall walls that are put around themselves.others are more adventurous..always seeing a door through the walls and walking out to improve themselves and gain knowledge. would it be right to say that the easily contented and simple minded people provide that much needed innoncence into our modern society, or is it just plain ignorance and naivity that keep this people in such a shell which would be degenerative in the long run.

is it right to say that these people are wrong to be easily contented? or should i say that they lack the want and drive to find out about things? or as i quote from a friend jus really immature in thought?

always thought that it was just the lack of being able to put ideas into words that would cause such problems to surface. but it seems to me that i have been to naive. it largely seems to me that thought and opinions are definitely not based on age restrictions. some ppl think more deeply than others while some just dont think at all, regardless of age.basic fundamentals were jus thrown out of the window with really shocking questions put forth.it stumped me. at a loss for words.

fustration.hurt.disappointment.

it forced me to re-evaluate things that i was pretty sure of.forced me to think deep and hard about what i could take and what i could accept. made sure that i rechecked everything that i promised. how true. love is about knowing what the other person wants and giving it to them.would u ever know what it truly means to love someone?this question would bring about alot of YES i know..but i would choose to say i am learning.and will continue to.

ended this day on a good note.very happie u got ur shoes!haha i know u wanted it soooo badly!tada!nice mummy.alrights.thanks again.really. p.s i didnt send that msg in the end..haha.but u were the last person i talked to.

2006-04-22T19:10:00.000+08:00

guys can really amaze me alot alot.they can do such nice things at times..and piss u off at other times..make u so hurt and sad at times and then guilty at others.they really bring out the most spectrum of emotions from you and leave you hanging on certain occasions.they bring joy comfort quite abit of love yet the negative aspects like sadness hurt and anger amongst others still surface.

the brilliance of being in a relationship.

they can be so sensitive at times...yet so unsensitive at others which makes and breaks you at the same time.oh wells. will gals ever understand guys and vice versa?or maybe its an eternal difference that all of us will face in the future.hopefully at the very end we would be able to relatively understand and accept ppl for any faults or differences that we all may have. i haf to say such things would bring 2 ppl close of course but it does take alot of trust and understanding through out as well.scary. no wonder many ppl would rather remain single and not get married and stuff. when u get into a relationship the level of commitment rises 10 fold and you would naturally tend to expect much more from the other party which you wouldnt if that person was a friend.hmm.food for thought.

may we haf a happie story

anyway..something happier.went for vjc dance concert yesterday.was not expecting anything great cus if u come from scgs..you would understand and know what is great. i dare not say this about anything else but if its scgs dance..yes..that is definitely great.the standard is very very high.i went with abby chong to watch jinglin dance and perform!!the whole thing was alright..nothing very spectacular but i must say she really performed in many of the dances and she really proved that she could dance anything from ballet to hip hop. and yes..she looks damn good in dresses haha =) wonder if u would actually read this jong but u really did very well and seeing u on stage made me feel really proud of u.cus i think u are the best dancer there..and u really managed to light up the stage.brilliance is the only word for u.though u did seem unhappie about ur performance..i hope tonight would go extra well for you *hugs*

managed to catch up quite abit with abby though we were half dead at the end of the whole performance.haha oh yes their performance was alright..some ppl made OBVIOUS errors like this gal forgetting she had to dance so she ran off the stage only to see her come back and join in suddenly..like 0.o serious.haha.though i mus say the mc was pretty good! the guy was quite funnie =) and vjc is so damn far...took FOREVER to go there and FOREVER to come back home..resulting in me reaching home at 11plus and dying away.
put in some words with woon but i think he also knew i was dying already haha and that i sounded bad..did i really? not sian jus tired ok.

going to have driving on wed and fri..wed would be the last day i learn all the dumb routes which i OBVIOUSLY cannot totally remember but at least on fri i would hopefully learn parking and all that stuff! hee driving alot faster now as well...hee i think i guo the speed limit sometimes though like OOPS! then my instructor would ask me to fang you..haha.i am a walking speed junkie!beware!hopefully i manage to pass on my first try.

the radio is playing FRIENDSHIP songs!cool.as in the theme for the whole week is friends.interesting.radio is good for health.

would try to make that effort to go down to your place tmr okie.dinner?maybe.haha.but yes..hopefully would be able to see you soon too.its been more than a week and i it would definitely be a good good outing.=)now that i know how to get there!!!

oh yes.ntu dean party tmr.hopefully i see someone familiar.

MEIZ.relax.smile.breathe.love.sucks at times..but its all worth the effort in the end.haha=)

2006-04-16T20:22:00.000+08:00

spent the whole day watching sad love story..the last 4 episodes were very interesting!cus..the whole show finally took a break from breaking the 2 leads up and concentrated on other ppl.the bad were punished and the good..werent exactly rewarded as u would know from any other tear jerking korean show just that this time the difference was that i didnt shed a tear at all.though i must say i was touched,angered and of course filled up with love at some point in time the supposed teary moments were not teary enough.haha either that jing xi shan just couldnt connect with me though quan xiang yu definitely could!!! *chengjun ge*haha =) ok yeps overall rating: quite a good show!though if u want a tear jerker..maybe not the right one.but i did enjoy it nevertheless.=) =)

was browsing thru the papers and saw a big big zhiyang face there talking bout improving his chinese.haha.i think they should put my face instead!!chinese improvement has to go to me!thanks to some BRILLIANT TEACHER I HAVE huh.whom i dun have to name lest the persons head gets WAY TOO BIG to fit through the house door. *grin*but hmm..not too bad lar cus i did make that person more englishy as well???

random note: its FREEZING.yeah the past 2 days haf been really cold at night due to heavy rain in the afternoon!eeps.shall gai bei tonight.

having the moh scholarship test tmr..wonder what its going to be like.was accepted into smu..and ntu psychology but another letter stated that i was accepted into their BA(hounours) in Psychology prog..hmmm..alw wanted to fang qi the ntu application so i didnt even bother asking for appraisals but in sucha case..think i better check out more about it as well. many ppl have been saying that psych in sg isnt great.mum also mentioned that she talked to some education counsellor the other day and she was or should i say she is super super keen on jus sending me overseas to study.which i am not so keen on at all cus its not that i can jus fang xia yi qie here anymore and go.it is an exciting opportunity that many people would jump at but i dun think i am up to it.she was really pressuring me that day until i jus almost broke..had to take a break from everything and had some quiet time to myself.i dun blame her for thinking that way but its really something i have to decide.at this moment.my stand would be singapore.what i wanna do next i dunno.but at least i know that if i were to ctd my stand bout smu..i wouldnt be alone.

had a good good time at pats yesterday as they celebrated their 18th bdae!!the tchrs r really funnie..or at leat i have opened up to them alot alot more.haha.phobe is jus a bimbo.OOPS!but at least that stand is backed up by other ppl! haha. i like working with them..no xian hua or politics..just teaching kids..and eating lunch and talking bout nonsense.cool.to think they thought i was so guai and dunno anythng that kinda person.EEPS what kinda impression do i give!!!but yes thanks meiz!for helpin out though sadly gab didnt wanna take a photo with you and i really tried to cut the mummy outta the picture already..though i mus say she shld b the proudest mum there since her little boy already has ADMIRERS!!haha from meinu somemore!but it was still alot alot of fun!seeing chang was damn nice!though he daoed me..boohoo.nvm i shall get him on tuesday!n the rest as well =) ashtons parents didnt bring them..the maids brought the 3 kids again..sigh..i wonder what he would do w/o these 2 maids.damn sad.everyones parents came..haix.

end it off.not talked to u for soo long already!finally yesterday managed to have good dinner..dessert and talk..not bad.at least for me talk until quite shuang lar though we both tired out already.thanks again meiz!

and to you..pls take care of your eyes though i know u wont be able to see this for some time but jus know that would keep praying for you.

dreary

2006-04-08T20:42:00.000+08:00

not in the best of moods today.not that i am very much affected or sad or anything along those lines just not able t o get myself up high and smiling as i would normally be at this timing on a saturday night.no manu to keep me company either.haix.its okie!at least i get nice calls.haha =) which i shall def await!.

its going to be something i have to accept and move on.yeah its not like something so easy as to jus let go off and be so normal bout everything and things like that..but at least i would put in my effort to really try and make it happen,at least the good part is that it would be a weekly affair and would be able to talk at night and stuff like that so it really aint that bad at all.haha.argh!~*kicks*hee.but meiz..jus for u..thanks so much.ur mail was a brightening moment for mE!really very happie to share sucha common understanding with you.no more needs to be said as to how much i appreciate u.but know that.hey man whenever u feel tired..sad..unhappie..or even happie..hui tou yi wang..wo yong yuan hui zai de. *love <3 <3*

jus went to visit my jiaolian who was warded in hospital not too long ago.haix.seeing him today really tore my heart into pieces. he looked frail and really just bad cus he needed to get off the bed to go to the toilet and he needed the nurses to help him. he wet his bed and the ppl had to change his bedsheets and stuff like that. compared to the sight i last saw him..where he could still stand up laugh and shout at the players..it was worlds apart.i still remember having a meal with him and my friend where he did walk alot slower and stuff but he still managed to walk on his own..and do things.now..it really SEEMED as if he was an invalid.which really made him sad.he held my hand today and made his usual jokes about wanting to pa tuo with me and stuff but there were moments that he wanted to break down when he talked about his back..and why he had to fall sick.he grabbed my hand pretty tight.it was sad.sad.sad. when we gave him money he wanted to cry again.oh wells.

the pains of growing old.without children.we look upon him as someone so impt to us.

may the power of prayer help him.

its been some time since i last met up with the bballers so 4 of us today was pretty good and fun.though we only met for a short time..managed to find out bout quite abit.nice.to still be able to talk and goof around.fahkhe and her nonsense.beat and edna lookin on in amusement. *hugs*

[friday.special.to me.and u.]

=zonk=

2006-04-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

my class blog is so effectively dead that to keep it alive..some junkie from i dunno where put some porn comment on it.under my post somemore!argh..cus mine was the last one there. which was eons ago.so hard to keep something going when the people ard jus dun seem to bother.not that i wanted to keep it up in the first place,but since it was started decided to jus be on of the regulars there..now even the regulars have given up on that place..wonder why i still bother going to check e blog out once in a while.hmmm..maybe it should jus die. papers had somethings on blogs today..why is it called B L O G..haha.why do i need to know.

things have been really good for me these few days.at least nothing really majorly bad has eaten me up..so *takes a quick look ard* everything is still in place.haha.but there have been VERY GOOD THINGS..like finally trading off the dumb sony erricson which TOTALLY sucks by the way..for a super duper excellent cool phone called the nokia 7370 =) so pretty! really jus a girls phone..swivel..gold..flowers.totally cool.camera is damn good too so yes as you can tell i am positively over the moon with this new buy of mine..though i had to pay 183 for it n it came out of my own pocket but whatever.haha. i like the phone pouch too,some velvety material inside.excellent.

ok enough ranting on that..i think woon and meiz would know how much i haf ranted already.haha.must take nice pics with you guys on the phone alright!~anyway back to life. grandma came down to singapore tat day so now i haf to sleep with parents.hope i am not disturbing their social life haha but yes..their bed is really comfortable!n i hav been having great sleeps.and my ahma cooks really well.had giam cai teng that day..salted vege and duck soup yes..its GOOOOD!not had that in a long time!! i think i am going to grow really fat if she stays here permanently.hee. and i have not driven for the week!OH NO thats bad..hmm shall call that guy up and DEMAND my LESSON.

went to pats that day to help out with this party of theirs.really cute kids.was very happie to see my laoshi again though she couldnt recognise me at first..i still could remember her.they all look the same..albeit slightly older but hey..its been 18years.of course they would haf grown. this balloon man did a dog for me..and he said:" we would nv grow up cus we would always be children of God" that line struck me. it was so true. no matter how old we grow..or how much we change..we would always be children of God..always be under his guidance. we would derive strength from Him and seek forgiveness as well.i dunno why but that line made me have a weird feeling inside which up till now i cant determine if its a good or bad feeling.

yups jus to end this thing off..
going to have a good dinner tmr!
ahhh.
yes and smu smu smu.happiness

2006-03-26T21:12:00.000+08:00

it takes so much to keep a friendship or a relationship together.
people are put the test each and every day as they go thru their lives with the different people that surround them. some people have it luckier than others.for all this time they have not once faced a broken heart, others have it worst...having their heart broken again and again.

why do we have to face such pain.

guess at this point in time..i fall into the lucky catogery. jus for the smallest of reasons: i feel loved by the people around me and in turn i love them back with all my heart.though i have had tough times with certain people, so far we have always managed to pull through w/o hurting the friendship but instead growing stronger each and every day. recently going through those talks with you the past 3 days have been quite painful.it really allowed me to re- evaluate the situation at hand and forced me to think as to whether i could accept you just the way you were. my answer at this point in time is yes. for saying yes, i do have that responsibility of not giving up even when faced with tough times and its not been that long either. though we have known each other for some time already, the expectation lvl has only grown slightly due to the short month or so..and i am willing to walk on. its been painful but worthwhile definitely.not been able to have sucha good talk with you and i am grateful for it.

of course thanks to my dear meiz who listened to the crap i had to go thru again and again with more things coming in to make me so pissed off..you were always there jus to listen and provide that something that no one else can : UNDERSTANDING totally.thanks a bunch. and also thanks for going down to the fair today.haha it must have taken a hell lot outta u..sleeping at that time and facing some of the most undecisive ppl.sorry!wish i could haf helped out more.
oh yeah not to mention..u supposed to mention bout ur good talk yeah? haha

okie..work starts again tmr.jeremy is coming back.brace myself for 3 hrs of non stop crying action.
oh yes and brokeback mountain deserves all the awards and star ratings that it has gotten cus it is def a damn good show.managed to catch it today! and i didnt regret it though i had a tough time making out what one of the cowboys were saying haha =)
kudos my friends.

2006-03-05T19:26:00.000+08:00

haha nice pic of meiz..haubi ms esther tan and me! yups just all smiles before our results part.she came down especially just to see how we all did! and she complained that she didnt have a SINGLE PHOTO WITH OUR CLASS tsk tsk...haha her favourite class!! haha so here it is at least there is one..=)

good chem teacher definitely..she really tried best to help us with our damn lousy chem foundations..yups thanks to her at least can still get the B for chemistry and of course our dear mr rudy lee as well.who is here! haha =) okie enough of chem for the moment!

haha anyway this shot was taken with miah asking very innocently to look at me and i was SUPPOSED to have a question to ask him lols i guess he was pretty amused with our nonsense as well during his chem lesson but with such nonsene then we can survive jc dun you think so.being too boring wont bring us any good anyway=)

alrights..yeah was ok with results and all..really concerned bout certain friends but i guess everyone has now moved on and has gone on to the next stage that requires the use of brains and worrying.what university and which course to go into.ooh wells.i think i really wanna do psychology..yeah and i think i want to work with kids as well. so prob child psych! jus emailed melb uni and enquired about certain things.may eventually go overseas though i really wish i dun haf to make sucha decision. however as i have seen from pals around me..everything seriously happens for a reason. blessings in disguise for us all. praise the Lord.i am sure that things would work out for us.after the open houses and talks..do hope to be clearer on the path to take this time round..and not screw up again.

yes away from irritating studies.went out that day and took some GEMS CARDS..haha so that if there are ppl who are worth praising i can give them the card.think its quite a good idea and if i were a waitress or some sales person..i wld really be happie to receive something like that.at least its still a compliment n def an incentive to really work harder to perform!interesting.

there are some ppl in this world that are truly sick in the head..recent headlines in the news are always talking about killing and all that stuff.erms.whats up with this world! too many ppl living ard that we need to take matters into our own hands now is it?even worse this stepfather 30yrs old killed his step daughter and stuffed her under a bridge..brilliant dun you think so. think u can get away with murder in sg? think hard again.

some random thing here..i love talking to erzi..she jus makes u feel so happie and def so impt.not to mention jay and wang lee hom..and lin junjie are very very good.so talented.though only one outta 3 are good looking BUT still..good voices and good songs!

to end this all..going to watch supstar tmr! haha for fun..may haf to wear sch uni..lols not touched that uniform for some time already..and i really dun mind it.haha jus for that hour why nt=)hope the songs the guys sing would be good and worth the time and effort going there! and meiz yes hope u do manage to watch ur constant gardner as well! it is a good good show =) def nice time talking that very day! wha longest time ever *hugs ya tight*

[support.encouragment.love.thats what we are made of]

2006-02-26T11:12:00.000+08:00

heyz..yeps okie the day is coming..d-day as we would all call it.wednesday.1st march.i guess it would have to come sooner or later.still remember when the Alvls just ended and everyone felt that whoa finally after 2 long yrs of studying in jc we could take a break.yeps with the results coming out..it just means back to school soon..back to more mugging and test and exams and reports and what not..more projects..and hair pulling exercises. *lucky i had time for my hair to grow properly*if not there would be bald patches around.but after all that lamenting..it will still come and i can only hope and pray for all the people around me to do well. hav been praying actually so..lets see if miracles do happen for me. 04s70..may we prove the school wrong and not do badly this time round.haha.meiz..baobao! seriously on the same boat u know.

i think lin jj shu neng sheng qiao song rocks.

coming back..its been good few weeks for me!!passed my advanced driving test!! yeps!! theory lar yeah but still! first try ok.it was pretty nerve wrecking cus the questions that i had were slightly trickier then the ones meiz had..which i realised while we were comparing certain questions.i had about 6 i was pretty unsure off..and i could only get 5 wrong max.eeps!heart was beating sup fast when i pressed end test but when the passed word came out i breathed a sigh of relief.on my way to becoming a qualified driver soon!!! better beware road users...i am coming through!26/7 shall be the fateful day. rem our first time passing thing k meiz! yi ding xing!

i think the attractions at sentosa has improved quite abit since the last time i went there.there is the 4Dshow thing...its about pirates but the thing is that the effects are good..when the people fall into the water..water sprays out at u from the chair in front..and the chair shakes and rocks along with the show.not bad.the other attraction was the lunge..very interesting! it looked like a go-cart ride which was pretty exciting save for some SCARY DRIVING!but it was pretty harmless aft all.haha.cinemania..was a let down.i mean it was jus a simulation rollercoaster ride..so it wasnt anything very exciting.overall i think the whole sentosa revamp thing isnt too bad at all=)great day out as well i must admit.guess it would def b totally memorable..and highly cherished by me.thanks for making it a day to remember always=)

ahh..jj songs jus make me feel so good inside.
had driving that day! was so tiring! cus i had to drive all the way from the test centre back to home.the test centre was at payar lebar..eeps..so had to drive on the main road and things like that so it was pretty scary..cus half the time i had to ENSURE that the car didnt stall if not i would be in some major accident! went up to about 60km/hr and i was already like whoa so fast.haha.oops.when mum drives at that speed i complain its slow..oh my..i need experience definitely.next one is on thursday..would be easier i hope.getting quite used to the clutch control and things like that.WHY IS THERE SUCH THING AS A MANUAL CAR..roar...get rid of it..all change to auto,makes life easier isnt it.

yeps good luck to all u peeps out there!
oh yeah a side note..i think those ppl that wear their working clothes and all that look damn good.haha.but super stressful when u go out with them too dun u think..have to wear nicer a bit to pei them! haha.but yes..long sleeve shirt..black dress pants..heels.whoa.super super nice.

2006-02-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

I DUNNO!..i REALLY DUNNO.haha.

2006-02-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

crappy ppl we so are!~s70

2006-02-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

another mad mad shot

2006-02-16T22:11:00.000+08:00

back row frm left: stef zoe zara and jo.

2006-02-16T22:08:00.000+08:00

nice picture..of friends since forever..n i do mean FOReVER.front row from left: hugo..daryl yihen xueling me shiqi shitien sean daniel.

2006-02-16T21:50:00.000+08:00

jus to let u know that this blog is still on.yeps.
haha erm not in the best of moods to blog much
but yeah had a damn good vday outing yeps.
had a superb talk the next day with meiz.haha..though i would haf loved to see her expressions hah cus she had a really SERIOUS..and STONEY tone..to ensure that the call seemed serious and important.kudos meiz.
had a short online chat with fel..brilliance that gal.haha congrats on ur conrad job and OH SO INTERESTING date.lols.
now i haf to damn seh friends working at hotels..whoa..office wear..
one haubi working at SPH..whoa..office wear too
and one cherie chan
working at PSH.haha not bad lar..kinda like haubi.haha *grin* jus a change of lettering haa like 4D like that.ok anyway yeah wearing anything i like.and being ard with kids HAHAHAHA.ok.smiley jiayou to u 3 okie! haha connections i have..watch out!
finally got down to calling the driving guy.he seemed so distracted lar.best.scared to go under him now.but oh wells he will come to my place and stuff so nt too bad! hope things go ok and well..would be having my first lesson on sunday!ALERT!they gave hp numbers and the centre numbers but the hp is nv on.i wonder what the hp is for.lols.and he seems pretty booked also all the time slots..giving me all those after 5 that would increase the charges..idiotic.but yeah no choice pressed for time.
wonder how to pass advance theory haha.
but a promise is a promise
and i shall try my best..
we can do it k!!! haha go go go! a celebration dinner aft that..tai tais =P

k eyes are not in the best of moods..quite scared cus i cant see that well with my left eye for some apparent reason.
so off i go.

when ure weary
feeling blue
when tears are in ur eyes
i will dry them all.

2006-01-31T11:16:00.000+08:00

a good cny this year i hope for all of you out there!the time to collect angbaos..the time to eat great food..huo guo among other things..the time to go all out to meet people whom u have not met in donkey years and to hear the same well wishes to you each time u see them.the time to see people whom u have nv met and somehow realise that they are related to you in some way or another.the spirit of cny.the spirit of sharing the festive joy.most friends around me have very big families!countless aunties uncles..numerous cousins and nephews and nieces.whoa.although i dont have the fuqi to have sucha big family..haha i am truly content.though the noise level in the house isnt that high or great,the bonding is still there.one new member to celebrate cny with this year..his name is keagen!yeah my new cousin.sooo cute!love my uncles children.though i hardly get to see them cus they stay at sengkang..but this makes each time more special when i actually do get to meet up with them. shall take pics and put them up here some day=)

just came back from msia yesterday..haha mum decided to do something different so she suggested we go watch a midnight movie!!it was PRETTY PACKED..we wanted to catch i not stpd too BUT alas...every single theatre that i could actually book tickets online were filled to the maximum..guess it was something new for my family but def not new to many other ppl out there!ahhh..so ended up watching fun with dick and jane! yeah.it was pretty cool. a few laughs here and there but definitely worth watching as compared to his previous shows. i am not a big jim carrey fan..though i have to admit that there are certain shows that he has acted in which was pretty hilarious..this one was ok but at least it had a proper storyline that made the show not too bad at all!its pretty short as well 90mins!but it was a good 90mins!the person next to me kept laughing like NON STOP! even at parts that werent exactly funnie and his gf was doing the exact same thing with him..OMG..but luckily their laughter was silent..vibration mode turned on!

yeah msia was pretty boring lar..super super sian i tell you i mean what else do u do but see ppl then u talk abit..hardly even.after that get ur angbao then u plop yourself down on the chair and stone to the wall.eat a bit here and there stone again.nthin very much on tv to watch either since ppl are around as well!!!and somehow everyone comes and goes at the same time. more ppl used to come in the past but since my grandad has passed away..i suppose its natural ppl may not come on the first day already...yeah so the house was pretty quiet most of the time.whoa i really wonder how tienyuan can survive like that everyday..cus I WAS LIKE HALF DEAD..dying of boredom..and feeling so damn lethargic..whoa..really cannot take it.i felt like i was just wasting my time away..and feeling quite crappy..the only thing that got me up and kicking was the ability to eat my favourite popiah again! yeah..though this time i had to take it w/o chilli..argh argh i am a chilli monster i tell you.oh wells.had the feast my grandma prepared but i couldnt touch them..*boohoo cries* yes...stpd cough..stpd nose and stpd throat..shall KILL THEM ALL! yeah and msia..i think they have a theme for CNY every year..i know one year they were showing jet li shows..another year they were showing stpd shows and this yr EVERY SINGLE CHINESE MOVIE HAD ANDY LAU and/or CECILIA CHEUNG acting..at times gu tian le also..but yeah!confused me quite abit! haha.though one show was pretty funnie..the rest were ok lar..but had to wait till 10pm to watch them! argh..so can u imagine..the whole day wasted jus sitting ard..eating...feeling dead bored.gosh...i survived?haha.but it was good to see my grandma again yeps..and my uncle and aunties.haha.nt too bad and 2 cousins.haha.

what a cny this year..read some greetings from friends which really warmed my heart cus they bothered to send them.its like xmas cards..i would always send..unless i break an arm or something*touch wood*but yeah such things one may say are formalities..not needed..but i will always send..its jus the thought that is behind it.i came back from nz..rushed the cards out in 2 days to ensure it was sent b4 xmas.haha..no time? make it. though the cards were rushed..the msg written in each and every one of them remain true and UNRUSHED ok.haha. but it was a quieter year definitely...

through the years wherever we go
with one voice and one heart
gather in our memories
and nv be apart
till we meet again
where we all stand as one
through the years with one voice and one heart
nv forget who u are
where we go near or far
we will always stand as one.
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10.05pm
haha jus had to blog this down
a chat i had with erzi earlier on in the day

erzi: but whats supposed to be a virtue for both our characters is that...we know we're not supposed to want it, therefore we curb our craving for appreciation --> that in itself is also a virtue?
but we suffer!

me:hah yeah we suffer! how saddening! lols.

so true isnt it.so true.we suffer.but the thing about it..is we choose to suffer.haha.

2006-01-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

jasin: see cus you ask me blog more i am trying ok!so u better shang lian and read this blog of mine! haha then prob can learn more about each other huh!damn funnie its like we nv really talked for so damn long then suddenly pop u dream of me then hah we start talking like old pals again.hugs you tight!~

alrights=)yes.today was alright at work.nothing very major happened save for the fact that some of the kids didnt come today which was good! which meant less of them to look after and a more peaceful class hopefully?sadly the latter didnt come true cus the 2 who didnt come were the peaceful kids..all those who mess up the class and just terrorise people were diligent and showed up for lessons.oh wells.*dream of lazing ard poof!*haha but we still managed to keep them under control..except one boy vincent..he bit a gals fingers!!!again.yes.this is the third time he is doing this and somehow we cant find a way to stop them from sitting nxt to each other.oh wells i suppose i would haf to look out and ensure that they DO NOT sit next to each other at all!yeah...my dear romeo brandon didnt make it today..and yeah vincent celebrated his birthday too!which meant 3 bdae celebrations in 3 days!so many cakes! i think these children would seriously get fat lookin at the way their hungry eyes eyed the cake and of course how they devoured their share.yum!i didnt try it though.haha.no way!chocolate..and icing and cream and stuff.eeks.too much at one go!

today some person came into check on the tchrs and inspect them..this person was the tchr that taught me yrs ago when i was in pats school house myself! haha so cool =) and the best part is she remembers me! must be too guai already thats why the long lasting impression hahaha but yeah cus i was her flower girl during her wedding..so that probably helped quite abit.she was telling me what the rest of my classmates were doing and i was so amazed that a tchr like her could remember and KIND OF keep in contact with people whom she taught 18yrs ago! thats spirit and passion for me.not every tchr is like that at all..the ones that i am helping now are definitely not like that though shereen..the english tchr is better than the chinese one.oh wells.there are tchrs and THERE ARE teachers.mrs b is one of the tchrs that i would respect for the rest of my life.im not sure if she knows how much she has helped me out..haha not really mentioned this to her i suppose but she is one of those that had so much faith in me..bothered to talk to me when i was down in the dumps..n was the only teacher and mentor that was there for me thru bball and prefects.will nv forget her!would not have managed to survive through the tough times during sec school if not for her.thank you.

oh that day i went to eat dinner with my erzi! we ate the beef FAN-tastic thing.haha not that great at all but i like the song and advertisement! hee i think the guy is quite cute as well.whee.the only thing i know is HEY chi fan le mah? haha *grin* anyway yeah shall learn the lyrics soon..haha.the previous song was the chicken mac nuggets one..that was way cool cus we all started singing it together in school!damn funnie.

oh wells.i have a damn small splinter in my hand at the moment..which is not painful but painful only when touched its like erps!!darn it.and the worst part is i cannot see where it is.yeah..have a feeling that there is more than one stuck in my thumb but i hope i managed to pull out some already. this stpd splinter is all thanks to my dear cupobard door that duitfully collapsed aftet 14 years of hardwork keeping up. and next comes the toilet window..the bottom sill jus came ouT like the whole wood panel just broke!which means now that we close the window.its kinda airy cus there is a space there!bestest.

i went to lvl9heeren that day..i absolutely love that place!you can just book a room and play games..watch dvd..expensive lar but if u have a substantial amt of people its rocking good! love the seats as well =) whee.so nice.n i jus found out there is a cinema there.exciting!

yeah time flies.work tmr again.hope its a happie day=)
feel like highlighting my hair.
oh to chao:sorry i daoed u online jus now.yeps.didnt mean it cus was away.pls tc would talk to u soon.

2006-01-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

dun worry this blog is not dead just yet.haha.just not had any inspiration to write anything so far! yeah abit late to mention this but i think the hc campfire was really good! lighting up worked quite brilliantly and our plan *some think its satanic..whatever* but yes garlic..onion chilli under a tree worked!brilliant! hahaha. whole week it rained..pian pian come to the impt day it didnt! and mrs ang was saying she was praying that it would just pour so that war games would be cancelled and things like that.haha nothing much changes i see..even after leaving. and she also asked me if i went for prom..lik o.0 hee i took a pic with her??? haha age catches up with us all! next year we would be writing the number 2 in front of our ages! OMG! haha and the following 10yrs it would be a big 3!!ahhhh!anyway haha not to think too far ahead..when we were young we always wanted to grow up! nw that u are older and getting even older..we dun wanna age so fast.irony of it all!~

anyway!~i haf a geisha show to catch with my nice pals! eh i tell you i think it would be nice though i have not read the book..many ppl haf like told me it was nice and stuff.think it should be quite worthwhile to catch it! and yes work today was ok save for the fact that there was this boy his name is james! ahh so cute u know when he smiles but he is like some TERROR..forever hitting ppl with his hands..and using snatching waffle toys..today he did the ultimate! he just like free falled and i had to like catch him just in time before he fell flat on his face! and he found it extremely fun!??! whoa kids..really amaze me.haha NO SENSE OF FEAR whatsoever! yeah which really irritated the hell outta me! but oh wells..he really messed up the class today one of those that haf a totally mischievous side to him. however! there is another boy! brandon! ahh sweetest romeo of all! there was this gal who was crying away..he went over to her and gave her a hug and a kiss and told her not to cry anymore! whoa can u imagine!this little kid really wins many older guys hands down hahaha *grin* and today this boy named alex came into the room and hugged the 2 gals that were there already ahhh so sweet but he cant really talk and his mum talks to him in guang dong hua..too bad i dunno how or else i could prob converse with him!tmr is a gals bdae! hopefully there would be a nice cake! but i haf a fav boy there..his name is zheng chang..whoa cutest of the cutest when he smiles and runs ard..shall take a pic one fine day and put them all up here. get paid to play ard with kids..who dun wan right not! i helping out with the playgrp at the moment..so yeah quite tiring lar! havin to look out for them and follow them to the toilets things like that can get pretty tiring! esp when there are 15kids..but got 2 tchrs and me...so ok lar nt too bad though the chi tchr can get pretty blur!

enough bout kids for the time being! ahhh org this sentosa outing for class but i dunno if ppl can make it.been having alot of negative responses so..i really dunno man.ah wells.it was worth the try i suppose.

short entry here.on a last note..pengyou the outing was great!heng nv ling dao yu haha =) nxt time can walk back one no prbs.yeah ur buys were super super good lar!better wear that out next time k then someone can look extra good already=)

regina tan!happie working okie!yeah it would be good earning money and being busy for ONCE in a long long TIME!time flies by huh..very fast then he wld be back too so hang in there =) once again my friend *baobao* jiayouz!

2006-01-07T15:04:00.000+08:00

hihi mia forever!haha yesterday i just had this brilliant gathering with some very good pals of mine!its quite funnie cus i would nv have had the chance to know them if not for basketball.yeps many ppl think basketballers are just ppl who are dao..butches..whatever of that sort even the school doesnt really support you that much as compared to ccas like dance and things that probably show how much you can grow as a GIRL..and be CULTURED or whatever nonsense.yups but if not for bball..i would not have met such good pals..neither would i have had the chance to know them and realise that the stereotype is just a load of crap. beat, khe, phil, tongdui, alison,grace thanks for a wonderful night!yups though alison's house was at tanah merah and being me i was sooo lazy to pull myself there but i guessed that hey ive not seen this bunch for some time already so decided to sit the oh so long green line PAYING ADULT FARE which was like dollar something compared to my 55CENTS!!!argh!! but yes i was greeted with laughter..warmth alot of catching up..plenty of gross nonsense but most of all friendship and a feeling of familiarity..playing with them since sec1 until now..makes it6yrs of good strong friendship and of coures we are embarking on our 7th yr now.may we have many more memories to share and many more fun times to come!

besides that..had an scgs exco gathering as well.this group..haha we nv fail to meet up every single year.normally it would be during CNY, xmas and yeah deepavali thanks to our dear vidhya maheandran who is FOREVER M I A ing now..haha yeah not seen this gal since dunno when! hopefully would be able to meet up pretty soon. well meeting up with them brought even more laughter and a hell lot of sharing and jus remembering the nonsense we used to do together.even before we became the exco we always had our little corner in the mornings where the 8 of us would sit together of course with others ard..but it was always the 8 of us..in the mornings..sometimes aft school in the prefects room. when we became the exco..it was even sweeter cus we managed to share more..work more..talk more and of course build up on our already strong foundation.sometimes i really wonder if i could share such friendships with other ppl as well.cus when u speak to others they always tell you that friends drift..they move on and some of them u dun even talk to again once the thing (school) that holds you together disappears.

to me this never poses a problem.

i have had such good palships with the bballers..with the exco with people like joy zeying dage and many more.i sincerely believe that all of us need some time apart..we may not talk very much..not share very much and really just SEEMINGLY forget that the other party is there..but when u come back and talk once again..it makes the moments all the more sweeter.when the voice is heard..it makes the talk all the more fulfilling and most of all once u meet up again..the friendship that U THOUGHT was dwindling..seems to be back with even more passion and fire.it has been proven..and i have had the blessing of experiencing things like that.these would be the memories that would carry me thru..19yrs of my life.next yr i am going to write a 2 in front of my age already! eeps!!*old*but my heart would remain forever young..thanks to ppl like you.

this is one reason why i am quite confident of my friendships that i share now.it takes 2 to work things out..and i know for sure that it would work..felyna lee.you have been a total joy in my life really making me see things from a totally DIFFERENT perspective..*good?*and of course teaching and helping me in alot of LIFESKILLS.haubi..my good msg buddie!you have never failed to make me smile with your nonsense and of course our nightmare b4 xmas fetish.not forgeting the things that we always share during lessons?haha.tsk.meiz what can i say about you..i have total confidence that we would remain good sisters for a long time to come cus to me..forever friends is NOT an impossibility.thanks.wld not have come thus far without u.loveya!*hugz* erzi its been a good5 years knowing you.the second time i am leaving but this time i know for certain that our promises would be kept.nv able to share such a relationship wif anyone else but you.scgs exco..thanks my dears for always making that slight effort to make your presence known.jo!think u r the only one that reads this..prob kaiwAI too but yeah love ya guys!!zeying..although we may not have really talked much shared much you always hold this special place in my life and i nv wanna lose it.hope u do well in ur council life!jiayou!remember the drive.pigpal..xiexie ni..for everything and alot more to come.u hav really been there always.i do hope that the memories shared would last forever. =)miah..haha you better THANK Me for speaking up for you ALL THE TIME!but yes..i wish you n my dear pal all the best ALWAYS =)

after all that..to all that has helped and played a part in my life i thank God for you.

jus a sentimental moment here..but whatever the case..i know that with the Lords guiding hands..i will make it through.

2005-12-22T09:28:00.000+08:00

yeah ppl its really been a hell long time! haha i just returned home from nz not too long ago...2 days actually and yups been having to do alot of clearing up and stuff cus i would be away again frm the 25th to the 28th in genting! yups nz was oh my goodness so cool!!!! it was gorgeous with all the scenery and all the adrenanline pumping things that we managed to do whoa i words really cant totally express everything! first up the trip there took bout 10 hours! long huh.managed to catch 2 movies that i have always wanted to watch wedding crashers and skeleton key..the latter really being quite nice!finally had my nice BEN n JERRY icecream on the plane! though it wasnt my first time le..haha had it after prom! *yum*it was the cookie something haha i forgot its name.oh wells it was good food there wasnt too bad at all enjoyed it quite abit.realised its quite hard to sleep on the plane! so much turbulence..lights on everywhere..tried to slp abit but to no avail haha so when we finally landed in christchurch we spent our first day sleeping in the apartment room! haha yeah we stayed at this place called the living space it was a 3 room apartment so dad mum took one while i took one with xiaodidi.other bro got one alone cus he was sick and coughing away! what a thing to get on a holiday!

first day we had this day tour thing so this guy drove us all the way to a place to take a train ride! it was quite scenic and nice!through mountains and over rivers like 70feet up or something..quite cool!we also went to see sheep shearing and yeah fed this small lambs! they eat like they have nv eaten before or soemthing!kept drinking milk from the bottles haha some pics would be put up later yeah not got them into the comp just yet. oh yeah newzealanders are picnic people! the guy that drove us that day had like 6 foldable chairs and one table at the back of his van and he would just go out for picnics with his family very often! we had a small picnic too along this nice stream and the thing is that the sun may be shining but the weather is so COOLING! not hot at all! not humid either! perfect to just sit there and bask in the sun u know. it was a really enjoyable time cus yeah i dun have picnics..ever..no tree in sg! got sun but so hot!haha.n its summer in nz...the weather so nice.wha...prob someplace i wanna retire in next time!

managed to go jetboating after that! wha that guy is crazy! he told us the fastest way to stop a boat is to turn really fast to get all the forward thrust off.so he told us to hang on..wha seh lucky hang on lar he turned so fast u really get pulled almost off the boat! which was super seh! travelled bout 30km of river jet boating.with hair all being blown backward and oh yeah...the scene was nice nice nice!nz is all about scenery actually what more isnt it!they really skim the water...n we got finally put our sunglasses to use.*took hell long buying it* we were supposed to look at glaciers..but snow this yr wasnt good so haha didnt manage to do that.oh wells.but we did more exciting things!

haha went to see this maori village! oh haha the maori are the first settlers in nz..so nice lar its like a wildlife reserve and part of it is the maori village thing..so we went ard seeing animals n finally got brought on a tour! we had to sit down watch the maori perform and we were pulled to join in their performances as well! haha i had to do this rotating of some ball thing..haha NOT EASY LOR! wha they do until so shen haha i do a few times then cannot catch up already haha.dad and bro had to do the HAKA!!!ahhhhh!!!i like that thing aloT! its the one where the ALL BLACKS would do b4 each game to kinda scare their opponents and stuff haha got one damn funnie pic of bro and dad having to stick out their tongues HAHA.exciting! oh got one of the maori gal..super chio leh.like wha...super.haha ok thats slightly outta point *oops*highly enjoyable and they sang danced..it was quite cool.

whoots after that we went to do white water rafting!! haha so exciting can i mean it was like way cool..had to do up to grade6 rapids..which were hell of a big rapid lar n we jus got thrown ard...paddled until arms ached oh my it was exciting.did hot air ballooning as well went up to bout 4000 feet..the hot air balloon moves quite fast u know which was quite surprising..like i didnt even know we had lifted off the grd n before u knew it u were already high up and moving ahead! it was nice to see how the balloon was prepared n done quite an EYEFUL.whale watching at kaikoura! yeah normally ppl see 2 whales ard there..yeah we managed to see 2 as well but we all kinda got slightly sea sick haha cus the sea was super choppy lar n the boat kept bobbing lols whoa cannot tahan it like that for too long.yeah some dolphins swam right up to us and jumped outta the water! went to see some fur seals on the rocks and there was this one eating a small octopus haha whoa it was xiong lar tearing that thing apart.whoots.it was quite nice cus the whales were up close..not that personal.haha.close enough.2sperm whales.

last day before we left for singapore..we gave sky diving a shot haha had to wait like 3 days for it and whoa seh..everyday cannot do until the very last day laR! hengs..aboard the plane i was shivering like mad..cus of the cold..and yeah damn scared.when the airplane door finally opened..i was shocked..haha too scared to talk also.before i knew it i was thrown off that plane at 12000feet!!ahhh!!!but once out it was heavenly..yeah not scary jus damn nice!!!took some shots..actually quite alot of shots but some are nonsense ones.yeah..one guy had a cam on his helmet to take the shots for us.rocks i tell you.this is def one thing that i will NV ever fAIL to REMEMBER!!haha.yeah that about rounds it up for the trip..

plane ride back was ok..haha was half happie half sad..cus really missed that place alot and the weather..once back in sg wha it was super hot.haha.and i am glad i dun actually suffer much from jet lag at all!!heehee =) excellent..though i was quite tired first day..aft that okie le!~yeah so much for my nice update..yups more regular post to come i promise! =) take care of yourselves.

meiz...glad to see ur trip was gooooood!!~take care pls~

[time apart is the true test of faith and mettle.survivors we are]

2005-12-12T02:32:00.001+08:00

cool class..though with some ppl missing

2005-12-12T02:32:00.000+08:00

more complete yes!~

2005-12-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

this has been the first time in a hell long time that i have actually turned on the computer..gone online..talked to very good friends..for some time.and now blogging.haha had this sudden urge NOT to touch the comp ever again! dunno why i didnt have this urge DURING the exams..somehow AFTER the exams this little thing came to me and yes i succumbed to it and really laid off the computer for a long long time.lols.dad took the comp to kl and yesh i didnt see it till today! haha so yups after reading all the tags hell yeah i blog for you guys now to read ok!

lols lets see..starting from a long time back oh yes we won the 100bucks sakae sushi voucher!!! *beams beams* haha alot of hardwork ok and damn great play from my dear pals regina,jeremiah, felyna,tienyuan,ian,tsulyn,michelle,caryn,zhiwen yeah cool work u guys! yes i have it safely kept anytime u want we go out okie!but sorry hor wont be here from 12 to 21 and from 25 to 28..heehee.30th have exco gathering! sc prefects man!ahhh we rock! yups so anyday other than those hahahha.if u want ur vouchers can ask me also since they are in $10 denominations yeps! wha there were some really sweet moves and i must say meiz wo men de mo qi zhen de bu cuo! haha okie jasin! sorry! haha but yeps..we too qiang for you lar hor.eh next time right we play on same side kk =P sian lar was praying so hard not to meet my friends team but in the end we did..played agst jasin and huitze and daowei.but yups it was rough..and tough but hell yeah enjoyed myself alot alot ;P u rock people.good game.

yeah prom jus passed not too long ago! haha pictures ah..u want then u ask from me k haha too paiseh to put the pics here lar hee =p yups i guess i would be coming online after i come back cus i would really have alot of catching up to do with some of you people so yes! and i wanna see all your prom pics too! jojoy tan! better show me nice nice things k! and did poi go for prom in the very end? i dun think so right.haha oh wells show me nice pics k!and whoever else that reads this blog yups=) i must say that prom was really quite good stuff! though alot was taking pics and things like that but seeing everyone dress up was really a refreshing change cus some ppl really didnt look like their usual selfs! really different and oh so mei!!! miah was up for the best dress award..crap man he shld haf won! lookin at the pics yeah his jacket really hen hao kan! and i know its being put to the best of use also huH! *thinks* not only that..ahh people like gina heng was stunning..lim jieying!ahhh faith perh also! haha in the end i had to go and talk to mr ang for awhile as well..to talk i dunno what thing.oh managed to get a pic with mrs ang and mr remedios who was making really funnie comments while taking the pic with me.haha oh wells.people and teachers that i have worked with and i would really miss definitely!my 3 good pals looked really really good lar!i still love meiz dress...fels hair! haubi hair also and cool cut of the dress!hen hao kan! guess people all really look good during prom lar..cant really be all that bad i suppose. dear mum managed to do nice make up for me! so in the end i guess prom was alot cheaper then many other people..*hee* i must say though Ritz is like some 5 star hotel the food was totally crappY!it really brought back memories when i was in sc..we had to taste the food to be served and yeah those we tasted were really good! really worth ur money kinda thing!this was nonsense n the mian was out to give us diabetes ok..so xian lar! *bleh* but other than that the night really ended super well.managed to walk ard with very good friends of mine.something that i nv regret ending prom with and really spending time with you ppl were terrific.it was sucha experience..something new and refreshing.something that i would nv ever forget.others may have had their taste of clubbing but this moment i shared with you guys wld be something that i would nv ever trade with for anything else. *beams*

came back at bout 830am haha after erm the breakfast at pacific coffee!gosh that place is so ex! 40buck breakfast!but yes courtesy of a dear friend who settled the bill..haha its good to be gals u know.talking bout that..the place was gorgeous with nice sofa and totally cushy chairs!so nice!went back half dead...had a good bath and yeps out for lunch with some roomies.sadly didnt take a nice pic!i kinda forgot due to my tired brain and rush to check out but oh wells! nice pics of class wld be put up here kk.

on a more serious note..talked to a good pal quite a bit today..regarding nothing much in particular but jus anything that came to mind.was very much comforted to know that in jc i feel really blessed to have had the opportunity to meet and have such good friends around me.people who have been silently supporting me and others who have had a damn big part in my life.i still rem meiz saying that the last day of school is really not the end just yet..so we were debating if we wanted to write notes to people and we decided not to in the end.now is it really the end?is prom the closure to the 2yrs we spent in hcjc?or is it jus a closure of a chapter and another beginning..the true test i would say of friendship and love for each other. there would definitely be less interaction b/w friends, less talking, less going out, less being physically there for each other. alot alot of things would now have to be based on promises, trust and jus a belief that a friendship or a relationship would surivive thru the storms that brew up ahead. without the comfort of school zones, we suddenly get tossed into the sea..not a jus any sea but i would say a raging one filled with uncertainty and much insecurity.many friends i have to sadly admit would be lost in such torrid waters, others would cling on jus by that thin thread but there would be those that would swim to you, holding a wooden plank in a hand and holding your hand,ensuring that u both grab that same plank..the water may carry u up and down pass many obstacles but that plank would stay.intact.

these are the people i am talking about.
those who care enough
those who want the friendship enough
and those who make that much effort.

it takes 2 hands to clap.

i have had the opportunity to test my mettle in such moments before.and i passed the test.i promised my erzi something..and i kept it.

now i promise you.
i will keep that promise.
i agree its given.
and i agree we wld def stay in contact. (u cant do w/o me)HAHA.*ego*
(soda)

prom doesnt signify the end to me.
it jus tells me that time has come..to test true faith.
would anyone walk this road with me?

p.s meiz.if u do read this.i hope u had the best time in taiwan and hongkong!we def haf to meet up k yes to return u ur money and of course to make me envious of ur trip!haha.i shall do my best to make u JEALOUS of me!haha kk.so nice of us.ciAoz.

everyword i say is true
this i promise you.

this i promise you.

reflections

2005-11-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

If I could paintI'd paint a portrait of you

thats exactly what my dear friends did for me..painted a beautiful potrait of my life with their delicate strokes..each telling a story of its own.with each colour holding so much meaning..with each movement..holding so much truth..things only we would understand and know. the final picture..one life that was made possible with all of your help and prayers.

was just reading my past autograph book.ha it can only evoke such nice memories..of the people whom u still talk to and those that u have lost contact with in a way. however this lost of contact is all but temporary..what really counts is when that phone is picked up or when u see the person thoughts flow and feelings are not lost. though it may be slightly different..you know that this is one person that God put in your life to give u happiness and to bring you joy.

And a million words couldn't say a thing
That won't be said in three words
Where love's the central theme

heres to joy..as u leave for aussie tmr..i am sure it would be one hell of a holiday for yoU! hope u have as much fun as u could possibly have yups! and do rem my koAla! and i shall rem ur COW! *wonders how to get it on the plane* at least u can hug the koala and tell the stewerdess its ur bag! i am sure she would believe u...easy job. haha

Just how far I'd go
Anything that I can do, I'd do it for you

fa ru xue is playing on my comp now..it just evokes very interesting feelings from me which i cant pen down at the moment.but i have grown to really love this song alot alot. to just stand at popular to listen to this.haha madness.people go into read books or buy stuff i stand there to listen to the song play =) the power of jay. i am sure YOU would understand perfectly ehz.

Every whispered sound would touch your heart
And maybe for a moment I could be your favourite star

ever had such good pals tht would just make it a point to look out for you and so called protect u all the way? haha. i have had the pleasure. was reading past stuff and i had come across many of my friends who said they nv believed in having a close ..or should i say SUPER CLOSE senior-jnr friendship. until i managed to bond with them..and the stories started hasnt ended just yet. good moments..good things to hear and feel.
but i guess what holds me most is the satisfaction after giving your all for someone to see that person happie and having probs cleared..whats best for me is jus to be able to crap
with my gooood friends. there would be people whom u just talk plain crap to
and others who are your confidante..its hard to find someone who can do a great job at both!
guess..i know people like that =) and having even one..makes me feel TRULY truly blessed.
i can only thank God..and thank you ppl..for helping me all this way.

exams i am so going to kill u.

2005-11-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

For all I've been blessed with in this life
There was an emptiness in me
I was imprisoned by the power of gold
With one honest touch you set me free

Chorus
Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life,
I was loved by you

For every mountain I have climbed
And ever raging river crossed
You were the treasure that I longed to find
Without you love I would be lost
-westlife-

cool song.hearing it just makes me feel all good inside for some apparent reason. i just came back from watching harry potter.i still remember talking about this to jessica and mallery..and mal and i were getting all excited over it with jess there saying that its too dark..and yeah wizardry and all that stuff. makes me wonder..does it really matter. does it really matter if wizardry is potrayed and dark magic is used. will that shake ur belief in something that u hold strong to yourself? does it matter if everyone tells u that something u always believed exist,doesnt. what matters most is that u believe and know it.
isnt it.
there are many times when i have had friends telling me that potter is dark..its bad its wrong its against Christ.some even saying it is satanic. but really. if you dont believe in all this and just take such shows as forms of entertainment..does it really matter if its wizardy or bad to others.what matters most is that i still believe there is a God. i still believe that He has the answers for us all. what really matters most is that i believe.and i know. all the rest.and thats all that matters.

the only dream that mattered had come true.

anyway back to life.yeps it was a good show i must say.i dunno what others think but i really enjoyed myself.wont compare this to other potter movies but i really enjoyed myself this time round.it took me away into this magical world..somewhere far away from A levels and studies and books which have binded me these past few weeks. it took me into something more than that..it was a little dark i msut admit toward the end but hello! look at charlie and the choc factory! i think that was darker! and no one said it was bad?? *hmmm* its just mentality and in the mind stuff. go watch it! think such shows really earn alot alot of revenue cus its like in some series and its something that everyone just has to watch! something like LOTR..which i really loved. the next show for me has to be NARNIA..gosh it looks good and not only that its by Walt Disney. yeps.their shows never fail to impress me and make me feel really good as i walk out of the theatre. talking about that i went to suntec today to watch it.cus we had free tix from DBS.hahha life is good!! yes and i just cant understand how u have this erm church...the ROCK yeah how u can have that place next to a cinema and an arcade. 0.o really how? more like some social gathering all the time.

was reading some of joys past entries..it got me quite hooked.to see how things have been evolving and i chanced upon one which talked about bball when she was in sec3 which made me a sec4 and my last year in scgs.she said that bball was a failure then..it was so tiring to play with the team..which wasnt even a team. well it was more like sec3 PLUS edna and i.yeah captain..but so what..i realised something which i really nv did before. so many people lead differently but the one thing that actually makes a leader is the ability to pull the team together and not let it break.something which i failed to do. i failed to make it happen for us and we had this great team. but on hind sight i think its cus i was too nice. i didnt wanna make anyone feel bad or feel outta place.which was the biggest mistake that i could ever make. cus there were many times i concentrated on ensuring that i appeared good on both sides.i dunno why.now as i look back..i think i have grown.at this moment i am not scared that u are pissed with me anymore cus i believe that its more important to stand up for what u think is right.not that u become unreasonable and stpd but really what u think should be done and to do it. council thought me this as well...at least something good came out of joining this organisation.

have had many thoughts bout my jc life.realised it has been one of the most fulfilling times. i think my class has really made things quite nice for me.so different from what i have been used to in secondary school.although now its kidna san already..but we still have out party of 8..and of course mallery leong! who is so ultimately funnie most of the time! not forgetting dear songern and miah soh!the backrow basically.haha. i still rem once where mrs chua asked us:

mrs chua: who did their work?
first row: hands raised
second row: some hands.(most)
back row: haha NO ONE.and we look ard 0.o hoping she doensnt see us *fat chance*
mrs chua: the backrow no one did work ?? -_-
back row: smiles sheepishly

thru out econs..the 3 of us..haubi fel and i wld be doing other things.most of the time haubi and i actually cus fel is GUAIER! yeps so we would be talking bout everything and anything but hey at least we are awake! sHiyA and jeANne would be competing to see whose head hits the table first with yitian jus lookin on helplessly haha. times like these =) things that are so small yet so hard to forget.
there was once when reg dropped econs then she popped by to see in too! and she started writing this note to me which i still have in my file! on looking back its sooOOo funnie lar! haha.weird things that we do yeah =) *winks* INTERNAL JOKE huh!~

think this has been a long entry
more to come!
maybe when i feel happier (does this line sound familiar??) haha.

FREEDOM!!!!!
awaits all who mug hard now...
bio option i am so going to eat u up.

p.s meiz..........really the battle was won cus of ur help! glad that we managed to help each other out in the end=)take care friend!~

2005-11-14T22:27:00.000+08:00

And all the things that break you,
All the things that make you strong,
You can't change the past,
Cause it's gone,
And nothing's gotta go,
Because they are gone,
Lessons learned.

-lessons learned by carrie underwood-

guess this is really whats needed for us right now.
lessons learnt..aft our stpd exams.
but nothing can change the fact that they have passed
whats most impt now is to know that u did your very best.
you may not haf been able to do it the way u wanted to.
you may not have been able to come out of the hall feeling super good bout yourself.
you probably didnt manage to complete all the questions hey * its the A levels*
but instead of just lying in our misery..or in our sadness..
we have to stand up again.
we have to move on.
the rest of the papers await us all.
yesterday was watching apprentice..and donald trump said this "i hate crying because it is a sign of weakness" haha how true? or how false? i think crying is a good release of pent up emotions.but i must admit there are times that we should just grid our teeth and wang qian zou sorta thing instead of drown ourselves in our sadness.
i dun think that i would have done very well for the papers that i have sat.
and admist my smiles pls..dun think that i am confident about each paper.
guess it would take closer pals to know.
but than again..we are all in the same boat. and we are here to help each other out.
do mug hard dear friends.
we have 5 days left.. *2 weeks according to fel* but i choose to see it as 5 days. its really make or break i suppose.but i am sure we can definitely get thru this papers.
cus we are not the only ones taking it.there are others as well..others.
to be meaner..u can jus hope that the world screws up and u do well.haha.

meiz : wishing u all the best.i still believe in our audi goal.and i hope that u will to.most imptly though is to ctd believing in yourself and to put everything behind u.jiez here always yeah!~hope tmr we wont get killed!.keep walking friend.

fel: YOU!dun stress u toot head! u were like going mad! haha. glad u liked ur bdae present..it was.well thought okie! yups and do relax..we really need divine help ehz.sigh.econs.haha.

haubi: tv tv tv how can u like that! slp slp slp somemore! but i think i am following u! for the tv part! dies..how how.haha lucky only left a few days only or else i sure die le.haha.jiayou sms buddie!~

woon: yes pal...friend..pls do well haha haf confidence in yourself even though u hardly mugged u slacker! hope ur shoulders are better yeps.

done for the day

2005-11-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

i am super tired now.
very very tired.
hahaha.must be the papers today that have totally sapped my energy.esp when i was walking home just now..was just half stoning and walking extremely slowly...that is until my mummy called me to ask where i was.yeah talked to her abit on the way back tellin her bout my papers today. not that there was very much to say cus i think i did what ever i could today already.math was in a very tired situation..but whats done is done and honestly speaking i think i did ok.just save for that one damn 3d trig ques..(by the way meiz i think ur ans correct..60 something? ard there?overheard other ppl talking) and yes so that ques i didnt know how to do so like that. then comes the t = tan (angle) one.haha whatever man! that ques just killed my brain cells.left me with none for the last ques so the results is of course without ques a BLEH.ha.but then again..besides these..i suppose i can still do ok.will still get some marks i suppose =) so smiling is the best option for the moment. yeps.
met my nj friends on the bus just now..haha heard that some people in their school are complaining that they haf lost 3 marks..one person..1 mark. 0.O!!! 0.o joke.lols.jokers.njc.the name lives on.

its one day down.
more to come.but at least its one day down.
will rem our goal yes.cannot forget it.
hang in there alrights! =)
think i am getting hooked onto jay songs also..keep replaying them these days..from 1 to 10 and back to 1 again.haha.oopps see lar meiz! all ur doing!~ but yes..nice nice songs.the rappish one just plays along as well though.keep on walking!!! *baobao*

fel.if u do read this.i am very sorry to hear about it.i hope that u are doing better and ok now.rem k just to hang in there and do jiayou onward.dun let ur confidence dwindle cus it would nv come back up again to meet the rest of the A level demands.its just these 3 weeks..and time really flies as u can tell.so do jiayou kk. *hugz!*

tided over

2005-10-29T16:02:00.000+08:00

whoa feeling good now
jus cleared up some things and i made my family wait for me so that i could clear up some thoughts of mine with a good pal..and yes they scolded me aft that. OOPZ.but i would have given anything to stay there a bit longer to really wrap up the loose ends. neverthelss its over.done with.put into a box and thrown into the sea already *sgp river is just too small* hahaha..wont have gone far if i threw it there. OOPS. dun arrest me for littering! its all in my virtual mind.

hmmm..ok lar feeling good i think there are some things that we both know just that we both didnt bring it up. u told me pressure.hell yes i just knew it lar.yet sometimes i knew that what i was doing would make u feel that way.haha.not that i purposely did that hor friend.the hints dropped lols i always felt super bad aft that.cus i know the feeling yet i am making another person feel like that.sorry(even though u say no more HAHA)!really! and yeps..erm about the other thing...security. HAHA. DONT EVER gain security from that kinda means. lols and i really dun EXPECT anything of you. honestly.so dun think that way anymore okie. esp the expectations!bu yao xiang le hor! wont happen one..i know u value ur privacy friend and i personally think that is impt as well! so yeah! thats that. period. and yes this time this whole para is FOR YOU ok.yeps.better clear up.cus the previous one was totally misleading.oopps! hai ni xiang tai duo le! talk bout me ehz! haha.should keep our ALREADY limited brain space for the books hor.hah we are free in 1 month friend. all the way k! soda power!~will always rem that jin yu liang yan of yours.lolx.and yes..we are surviving this period.so short only!pls lar long way more to go.haha.feeling freer..and better now i hope!

yups erm joy quah!!! you better jiayou for ur pw k..though i really know its killing u haha.ur grp ok right? hee = ) hope things go well too k! and yes i heeded ur advice. i am a free person.lols.

to the rest out there...dun misinterpret the previous previous post hor! yes..its not what u think really.think it was super super misleading as well.sorry it erm kinda threw u guys off track.muahahaha.anyway thx for the showers of concern.lols.its like whoa.i have all of you always!~so nice.mug hard u guys.freedom coming k.

2005-10-27T16:00:00.000+08:00

Make your own puzzle at http://www.flash-gear.com/puzzle/

on a cuter and happier note here..the previous post( if u had read it) was really quite depressing.some nicer thing for now =)

=) =) =)

2005-10-23T15:53:00.001+08:00

its been a long..long long time.
just heard this song on 933 just now..think its an old song..something bout peng you shou qian shou dunno what..then hold on till u see a nice rainbow...whoa.i like the lyrics.so nice.and now 933 is being quite funnie. cant believe i am actually listening to it and yeah enjoying listening to the chinese.goodness.still rem not too long ago that whenever i heard chinese i would have fainted...and if anyone spoke mandrin in scgs we would have all fainted on the spot.and called each other cheenah poks.haha.those were the times. now in hc..whoa u speak english only..abit weird. the diff and disparity in cultures of different schools. and i managed to make it to the borders..yi jiao ta liang chuan like that.haha.in this sense..it would be good.

me did some work today..chem...hmm..did a bit of biochem! whee not too bad lar cus i nv really bothered studying it so i of course failed my chem prelims and did really badly for the whole thing in fact.rem ms ong still asking me

ms ong: so are u still affected by your results?
me: no..(in my mind) * never was*
ms ong -_o
me: =) =)

but its the truth lar..dun really bother much about prelims already.hee.more like now quite scared for my a levels also.though i have been working..i dunno if i have been working hard enough or just doing work yet my mind is just somewhere else. just drifted off and thinking of other things which shouldnt seem to be impt now.

have you ever wondered why people keep asking u how much u mean to them..or thinking how much u mean to someone else.all insecurity.haha.but why does insecurity come about anyway.it could just be because u really dun treasure that person as much anymore or maybe you both have differnet understandings of the term trust. there are those friends that really show their care..and those that keep it more in their heart. i suppose there really should be a balance to prevent your friend from thinking of anything in the negative manner.
wonder why i nv felt insecure in scgs.
am i feeling insecure now?
hopefully not.prob its just the exams as well..with everyone being quite antisocial.
so i should be happie that people act bother to send nice msgs..or just ask how i am doing right.
yeah i am totally contented with that.
i am more grateful for the friends that act bother to keep up their sms session with me.
though we may take 1hr or more to reply each other.its fine.haha perfectly fine.
at least its better than those who just dun reply u..for whatever reason they might have(not the fact that their sms limit has been reached)
i suppose its just the want to share..the want to be there.
how much that means to you compared to the studying part.
maybe i should stop being so feeling
should revert back to my hard heartedness..maybe thats why i was hardly hurt in the past.
there is a limit to how much one can take.i must say the feeling of being a weakling sucks.
not having emotions does protect u.but u lose out in other areas.
again..a balance is needed.

life is all about striving for balance..between people...between work..between whatever u believe in.

things would nv be the same a few yrs down the road.
but at least make that effort to ctd kpin in touch with whoever u treasure very much
though we may laugh and talk alot
the feelings are all different.
but a feeling of nostalgia would just come by
and i would take comfort in knowing that hey..at least i made that effort.

p.s regina tan if u do read this.dun sian!hee.seeing ya tmr!whee.jiayou kk.=)

2005-10-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

trying to make it look like a mirror image.hmmm.haha still nice enough!

2005-10-16T11:45:00.001+08:00

haha nice star dun u think so:P

2005-10-16T11:45:00.000+08:00

quan jia fu!! haha.our favourite friendly clique people yeah!~

2005-10-16T10:40:00.000+08:00

Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strenght of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations

There’s nothing ordinary
In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girl
As they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can’t
You’ll discover that you can

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here

The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream

this was one of the songs we sang for our prefect investiture..if i am not wrong..my very first.:pmemories flood back to me..standing on stage for the first time...
good times we had..the innoncence of it all.

hope this song can help motivate and inspire you guys out there.
the power of the dream.

haha our goal is the dream k meiz.

fello..if u read this...we shall jiayou hard together as well.

2005-10-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

i just read wanyi's blog..charlene to many of you.yeps her joy going to church..she actually studied one day so that she could spend the next day at church. 100 plus people from the original 15 that started out and the happiness that she just recieves from praising the Lord. can everyone be like her? so happie and contented with the Lord. i wish i could learn..the things that she has i suppose learnt.maybe its just the upbringing or maybe she has really recieved one of Gods greatest blessings. i will learn one day...to keep the faith..and remember that to live for God..is the greatest joy that one can ever have. i have seen a friend learning to accept Him and becoming a better person. i know of prayers that have been answered. my own has been as well. but i do know that even if the prayers arent answered, He is just answering them in a different way than we may expect..at the end of it all its just for the best for us cus He knows us best.

its 10pm.time for my apprentice.
just felt like blogging that feeling out.

many a times we think that people do not care about us or people just heck us all together but its so not true. many people base their friendships on time and communication.
i dun wish to be like that
there are people whom i do yearn to communicate with everyday.yes everyday.these are the people whom i feel are just damn special in their own ways.but thats my point of view.it may not be the same for the other party.that i have to accept. to find like just one special pal is already sucha blessing.
i think i haf managed to get a few blessings.
those few will be the ones that i will hold on to..thru my life.
now that mugging period has come..i think a little bit of my drive has started to come back.at least i do acknowlege the fact that i have to mug and work harder already.i know that they are people there who wouldnt wanna see me fall.i have fallen time and again.with only some to help me stand up again.and this time i wont let those people that have helped me thru my jc life down.i wont let my parents down..i wont let myself down.
thanks erzi.for praying
thanks meiz for being there n being urself.think i have learnt alot from u
thanks fel for kicking my butt
thanks woon.for nv failing to encourage me.
and many more.
i hope to do better this time.
mugging periods up...
i shall strive.

p.s soda powers to us.

2005-10-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

detestable sats tmr.didnt even read the word list.tell me how dead am i.
anyway
had a good day today shall update tmr or something..think i wld be having a great day
tmr as well after sats that is.haha.
and hmm.nothing else to update about for now.
hope u do well for sats people.

meiz.last stretch yeah we shall make it thru..need ur help too so stay strong k!
think we shall have to keep each other sane (or insane) as well.:p
our weekly talk or something haha.anything.
mug together some time...one day.lols.

cant wait for the whole thing to just end.
never been so tired in my life.
tired of studying
and doing stuff.

i wanna be set free

i want you to know how much u mean to me

2005-10-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

yeps the full fledged FOS!!..our dear leader felyna lee came up with this whole thing with each of us taking a number...i am fos2 fel fos1 chloe meep fos 3 and regz fos4.haha.best of pals man!still remember all the crap we used to do during our first 3 months..just glad that with you we still managed to talk and crap alot.laugh alot alot as well.ha.

2005-10-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

when everyone was busy mugging for whatever thats coming up..here i am with a group of my good pals..at haagan daz under tangs!

2005-10-04T00:22:00.000+08:00

just had an indepth talk with meiz over some friendship issues..started out from relationship actually which just boiled down to friendships and stuff.very true what she said.how many people talk about eternal friendship and forever friends sorta thing but how many of those friendships really turn out to be forever.fel commented that maybe very soon the other friend that u would have would be your husband haha.how many of you agree with that. i..yeah agree to a certain extent i suppose but i do believe as well that some friends are for..a long time..forever i am not too sure or confident about it but for a long time definitely some.few and far between though.
sec sch and jc life is just the time to make the best of your friends.these are the people that go thru your growing up years with you..help you through whatever problems faced and grow with you.they are they at your most vulnerable times so i would say..they would be the best to carry you through your life to come.
work life sucks i know..people are friends but most are back stabbers and just fiends.foes.whatever u call them.fake.its hard to find someone true to you.
but what hit me the most today was just this 2 lines from our chat log:

xiaodi: so jies can trust or not
regina:.... if jiez cannot trust then i cannot trust other friends le
xiaodi: what if i let you down..can trust again?
regina: *some stuff in chinese* yes is can.

the honesty in the conversation heartened me.
just 2 lines...
will carry me through.
erzi is good at such stuff.just a simple line or word.w/o prompting or anything and u just feel so impt each and every time.and she doesnt say it all the time.jus when its impt.u rock.

words cannot express how i feel i suppose.
its just a feeling within.
its more then security
it boils down to the few that u TRUSt.
haha.
i think u know that i trust u as much as u trust me.
hope this trust lives
soda power.

absence.

2005-10-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

hi.realised i have mia for some time here.last post was when..24/9 ah alrights.shall update this blof for those faithful readers out there! if there are..anyway yups lets see..went to celebrate jeremiah bdae that day! super fun! we went to black canyon to eat eat! yeah some of them got icecream and stuff i just settled for the healthiest thing they had..which was water.haha.ok and lets see we also managed to take many pics! shall upload them after this post!. went there with miah,meiz,fel,woon,liangjian,zhiyin,lak,jason and me!jem was mia! cus he had to see some tchr or something along those lines but yeps went there and we did this powerpoint thing for miah! haha courtesy of woon tienyuan.lols.with a whole new load of funnie player profiles n things like that. i was effectively a pool fan for one day! yups.so now i have reverted back to my manu! whom are not playing very well at the moment for some reason but yes must ting de impt words.must have faith in the team!so i shall keep the faith. after that we scooted over to coffee club in holland v! the buses were very very cooperative..kept coming so quickly! i wonder why it isnt like that when i am like rushing home or something.the bus doesnt ever wanna come when i need it there but when i am not in a hurry..they just zoom by haha. oh wells. yups so we got to coffee club with alot of time to spare! most of us aet the baked bolo spaghetti..which supposely won some food exellence award though i really thought nothing of it. think meiz dish was nicer! some mushroom..blahblahblah thing haha. good olive oil taste!~

yes besides that ppt we also gave our own nice presents to him! me shared with fel this ear phones.cus his ones are POKKAI! made in phillinpines and bought in msia..quite cheap so he said..so yeah we got him new ones since he was OLD ENOUGH haha better treasure it man!~dun spoil it again! did this note for him too! though the stpd glue that i used was lousy so by the time i gave it to him..erm a part of the note was coming off from the paper.oops sorry about that! shall get better glue next time. SUPER GLUE! to stick the darn thing down. DUN BUY THE BLU STICK...blue colour one.so LOUSY! cannot stick one! meiz tried it that day too and yes it FAILED us.haha.shall get better COLOURLESS GLUE.maybe the BLUE COLOURING somehow makes it less sticky..prevents the adhesion of materials.whoa.

anyway...oh meiz! haha busy gal today huh u! anyway yes asked u that ques bout erm treatin as jie thing cus right..if you do..then DUN NEED THX LAR!haha.yups my pleasure really!it was super fun experience as well i must admit! thanks to YOU for allowing me to be part of this wonderful...big project.really xie le!~hope that you rest well too ok! the weather these days causing many people to fall sick then you already sore throat and stuff.do take care of yourself alot meiz! alot of rest and water okie! u can be the toilet attendent for the day! haha. oh and also here is a nice hug! to get your sickness away okie! baoz ya!~

yesh..there are jus some people in your life whom are so dear
so precious so true
haha told this to erzi before as well
some people whom u cannot get angry with
you can nv get sick of
always forgiving.
loving all the same everyday.
haha love ya guys to bits.should know who u people are.
the few to be part of this grp..
u guys hold a very special place in my heart.
always.

ahh now no more jingshu to look forward to every monday le!boohoo.nvm i shall start on my war and beauty! erm jing zhi yu nie i think..thats the show title.haha sooo super nice lar! so much intrigue and u can nv guess whats going to happen next sorta thing. i love such shows keeps you on the edge of ur seat! my dear mother watched red shoes today..the korean horror flick *supposedly 4 stars material* and she almost fainted cus it was bleh.haha but then again asking her bout horror..nothing is scary to her at all.lols.and because of her i think i inherited that so now horror movies are like..hmm.no kick! find me a nice one and whoa! i will really pei fu dao wu ti tou di *meiz chinese usage hai hao right* haha.

went to eat ZHOU today at beauty world.saw some 71 people pass by so cool lar they all always going out as a big grp..almost whole class somemore.wha.best.think they are by far the coolest class ever.my class was ok at first.but i suppose its getting deader.we are really a big group..very diversified.quite sad to not be able to be as close as i would have liked a class to be but i think this class is by far one whom i am already closest to already cus in the past..cca were my top priority.ccas were jus so dear to me.lols.now its class.or prob jus the grp i have in there. hengs can still talk and crap with many of them. just make sch life more interesting. bridge was good today too! haha.seeing haubi being so excited and thinking so much thru the game was super hilarious! think if michelle were to play with her she would jus sleep on the table first befor haubi makes the next move! but it was good..refreshing.

oh erzi! i wanna know how to do that magic trick! teach me then i can show my class people haha.this one was interesting.how did u do that!~all the kings were happily walking in the forest together.haha.k
to all ya out there.
take care of yourselves
what ever come for prelims
just take it in your stride
strive for the A levels
i dun believe that i cant do it really.

oh yeah last thing.meiz! we shall haf to help each other with math! and erm.not forgetting sAts argh! jiayouz out there!~